high pressure system closing in
Lately the pressure has been mounting at work. The Stanford 10 is on March 17-18 and we JUST got our practice books yesterday. Well, I about died when I saw the reading passages. I just don't see how my low ones are going to be able to read it completely on their own and be able to read the questions and get the correct answer. I have been working with them so hard on reading comprehension, but the passages are really rough for first graders. I'm worried about the scores. I'm worried that I'm going to look like I don't know what on Earth I'm doing. Now, I know this is nowhere near as hard as FCAT, but nevertheless, I am feeling a lot of pressure. I have absolutely no support for being a first year teacher. I feel like I have to mentor my mentor and I find that to be ridiculous.
Today I got a new student from Archer that could not even tell me what number came after 10. She couldn't count from 1 to 10. She only knew 20 out of the 48 basic sight words and I think she guessed on several... Oh and she's 8 years old. They did not start interventions or anything on her at Archer. What the hell were they doing over there? So now, our guidance counselor expects to have an EPT on her on March 1st and I have no idea what I'm doing as far as interventions and that definitely doesn't give me very much time-- at all!!! I had a post observation interview with my principal today and she told me that she gave her to me because she knew I could "handle it" which I understand is supposed to be a compliment, but it is very frustrating. I BETTER have a job on the first grade team next year or I'm going to be pissed as hell.
I just don't know that I can do this job. I really don't. I am stressed out every day. I feel like I am already burnt out and I have not finished the first year. It sucks, but maybe I just wasn't cut out for this.
Today I got a new student from Archer that could not even tell me what number came after 10. She couldn't count from 1 to 10. She only knew 20 out of the 48 basic sight words and I think she guessed on several... Oh and she's 8 years old. They did not start interventions or anything on her at Archer. What the hell were they doing over there? So now, our guidance counselor expects to have an EPT on her on March 1st and I have no idea what I'm doing as far as interventions and that definitely doesn't give me very much time-- at all!!! I had a post observation interview with my principal today and she told me that she gave her to me because she knew I could "handle it" which I understand is supposed to be a compliment, but it is very frustrating. I BETTER have a job on the first grade team next year or I'm going to be pissed as hell.
I just don't know that I can do this job. I really don't. I am stressed out every day. I feel like I am already burnt out and I have not finished the first year. It sucks, but maybe I just wasn't cut out for this.