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well i*ll tell u the boring everyday stuff first... even though what i*m going to get to later seems to be becoming an everyday problem, meaning it has been happening more than it should & i should have learned already... but anyways...
right now i*m doing my stoopid stock project... and i just got back from work like an hour ago.. nothing exciting there...
but anyways.. i*ve been really confused by someone lately.. as i mentioned before about my really great night haha... i should have known that that wouldn*t last... not just because it never lasts with anyone, but because he has done this to me before.. but that was sooo long ago and i thought he changed by now.. but now i*m really confused to all hell about him... and it*s fukin hurting.. kuz i can*t help but want him.. a lot.. and i can*T help but have feelings for him... and i found myself falling for him again.. and i know that*s frikin insane.. but.. i dunno how to explain it.. . but i*m sure he could tell he was making me fall for him.. i wish i could just brush this off like any other guy but i can*t.. because being with him actually meant something to me & all i can think about is how i want to be in that moment again and.. O:) do even more.. (don*t wanna get too personal on here) but all this time until then i was trying to hide my feelings.. i*ve lied about them so many times kuz i didn*t wanna lose our friendship... but now i just can*t hold it in anymore... :'(
i hate being a hopeless romantic.. and i really should stop talking about him now before i say some really stoopid cheesy shit.. that of course i would mean .. but noone wants to read that.. i*ve probably already bored enough ppl..
welllll... i should get back to my project now.. man i hate skewl.
oh yeah & i*m still horny.. which is sucking hardcore at this point.. u know... having feelings for someone but then i know he*s just gonna tell me he doesn*t wanna be with me.. and then there*s mark... :-\
right now i*m doing my stoopid stock project... and i just got back from work like an hour ago.. nothing exciting there...
but anyways.. i*ve been really confused by someone lately.. as i mentioned before about my really great night haha... i should have known that that wouldn*t last... not just because it never lasts with anyone, but because he has done this to me before.. but that was sooo long ago and i thought he changed by now.. but now i*m really confused to all hell about him... and it*s fukin hurting.. kuz i can*t help but want him.. a lot.. and i can*T help but have feelings for him... and i found myself falling for him again.. and i know that*s frikin insane.. but.. i dunno how to explain it.. . but i*m sure he could tell he was making me fall for him.. i wish i could just brush this off like any other guy but i can*t.. because being with him actually meant something to me & all i can think about is how i want to be in that moment again and.. O:) do even more.. (don*t wanna get too personal on here) but all this time until then i was trying to hide my feelings.. i*ve lied about them so many times kuz i didn*t wanna lose our friendship... but now i just can*t hold it in anymore... :'(
i hate being a hopeless romantic.. and i really should stop talking about him now before i say some really stoopid cheesy shit.. that of course i would mean .. but noone wants to read that.. i*ve probably already bored enough ppl..
welllll... i should get back to my project now.. man i hate skewl.
oh yeah & i*m still horny.. which is sucking hardcore at this point.. u know... having feelings for someone but then i know he*s just gonna tell me he doesn*t wanna be with me.. and then there*s mark... :-\