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Last two days were bad. I can't find the money that I made yesterday so I'm very mad about that. The only good thing about work today is this couple that I waited on and the nice things they said to me. They asked me about school and what I'm going for and they told me whatever I do, they have faith in me and believe that I will be very successful. A customer said that to me! They made my day and left me a good tip. We need more people like that in this world. The whole fight between Ryan and I, don't understand nor why that even happened. I think I may have an idea but I can careless anymore. I was talking to Deidre about it and she made me feel better. I love Deidre, she's my buddy. I'm so bored with everything and I'm just not happy anymore. I don't know what I want to do. I'm hoping when I go to Virginia, everything will be fine when I come home. I used to be this happy Toner but now, I just don't care anymore. I feel like I don't care about anything and I have no feelings. The last time I felt like that is when James was around. After that whole thing between us happened, I was back to my old self again. I just want to get away from everyone and be by myself far away. I want to miss people but I don't. When Rachael went away to visit Lindsey and was only gone for week an half, I missed her because I wasn't with her everyday like we used to be. I miss Lindsey all the time and can't wait to see her sunday! I know what I have to do, but I don't want to do it. I guess I'm not to sure but right now, I feel like it's a good idea.
I started to think about when my brother Jason get's married. This means he will no longer live at home anymore. I can deal with the fact he is 11 hrs away at school but he will be gone for good. It hasn't hit me yet but once all his stuff is gone for good, I don't know what I will do. Anytime he would come home from school, we get excited to see each other. I love having him home. Makes me sad to think he'll be gone for good. Don't know anymore...
done for now...
I started to think about when my brother Jason get's married. This means he will no longer live at home anymore. I can deal with the fact he is 11 hrs away at school but he will be gone for good. It hasn't hit me yet but once all his stuff is gone for good, I don't know what I will do. Anytime he would come home from school, we get excited to see each other. I love having him home. Makes me sad to think he'll be gone for good. Don't know anymore...
done for now...