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[tinkerbellie747]

so i have safely landed in cincinnati ohio for the funeral of my uncle. the funeral is on monday and the showing is on sunday. it feels like a dream that none of this is actually happening that my uncle is just going to show up and everything is going to be "normal" again, but i know that in my heart of hearts that isn't possible! i know reality will hit all of us on monday when we go to the showing. my cousins haven't really accepted things yet and i know that is will kill them. valeire the youngest is in deninal she says she's fine but we talked last night and she's really not. nick's world is going to shatter, his dad is hero and i know that when it hits it's going to kill him too. i'm not sure about gary, we aren't that close i mean i love him and everything but we don't talk that much. i know it's going to affect us all. my poor daddy, he's got so much to worry about, the kids, his sister and his brothers, and then it's his brother thats dead so he has to go through that too and then to top it all off his dad died to the same thing when my dad was nicks age so it's like reliving that whole experience all over again. so thing are pretty rough right now but i know well i hope that we'll all pull threw this together as a family and things will go back to "normal" again as sone as they can
keep my family in your prays
emily