It Hurts...
I just found out that my cat has to be put down. The blood tests came back and said that his Kidney's are only working at about 16% of what they should. They can keep him alive with shots and a split to get some of the toxins out of his system, but cats usually figure out how to take those out and the shots only help for awhile. Then it would be taking him home to have him just die there or run away and die which are not good options. The best thing for him now is to be put down. So my dad is going to meet me somewhere tomorrow so I can say goodbye to him. I just wish he had more time and I could spend more than a few minutes with him. I just feel like I am letting him down. He has always been there for me when I needed him and now that he is hurt and feeling bad, I can't do anything for him. Not even be with him and let him know it's ok. I am all the way over here for training and am only going to see him for a few minutes. He's my little baby. I love him so much and I just hurt. I can't believe I'm never going to see him again. Have him paw at my face to wake up, purr in my ear when he wants attention, meow at his food bag when his dish is empty, have him look at me with his big green eyes and cute kitten face, after opening a tuna can turn around and see him sitting on the kitchen floor waiting for some or be able to watch him stretch out as big as he can infront of the fireplace in winter. The vet said he was 13, so he did live a long life and I'm sure it was a happy one. It still just really hurts. I just knew it was going to be bad when the vet didn't give him his yearly shots and just did blood work. I just didn't think it would get this bad this quick. I just really wish I could be at home right now.