caring can be the worst quality you can possess at times
mmk, so i have no idea what to do with myself. i feel one way one minute, and another the next. i guess i have to deal with the fact that no, he may no consider me a friend but he doesnt mind hanging out with me. honestly, it sucks because i care about him in an UNromantic way now. i care about him as a person and i do care about what is going to happen to him, and i want him to succeed. and i want him to be happy. dispite the fact that we dated, we have hung out after and i do consider him a friend. it just sucks when someone you consider a friend and would do anything for pretty much wouldnt feel all that bad if they just erased you from their life competly. i HATE feeling like im easily replaceable. i would feel just as horrible if it were elliott or mark or andrew in rory's place. and now that he is moving in with those 3, ill be seeing him more and i just...UGH...i suppose it doesnt help that i dont even know what i want to come from this? getting back together is not in the question, at all. maybe in like, years or months or something, if there were some miracle that came that made me for some reason irresistable to him or something. i have no freaking idea. all i know is that yes, i want to be his friend. but i also know that it is going to hurt like a biznitch if/when he starts to date someone else.