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so after a long discussion with Matty and Meg i have come to a conclusion.
whatever. lol not in a sense that he can treat me like shit, but in a sense that maybe he is having a bad week? whatever the case may be, im just going to joke about things so that he gets the point, or im going to kick his ass. because he does do sweet things sometimes.
like at the santa clause parade. or when he went with me to harry potter. or when he drove me out to barrhaven to give my best girl everrrrrrrrr a cheesecake and ice cream as a congrats on getting her G2. for not hating me because of how i laugh. for putting up with my spending habits and just giving me that look when i show him what i bought. for watching Disney movies with me (still working on the Sound of Music). for not caring if i dance with other guys. for sharing his toothpaste. for being patient when we first had sex. for those couple of all nighters. for saving the table cloth from our first date. for complementing me every day.
basically, i need to lay off and cut the guy some slack. i need to balance both the good and bad perspectives if i want this to work. and i have to want this to work, and if it turns out that he doesn't? then yes, i will wallow but then i will pick myself back up and keep on trucking. but for now, i want to concentrate on the present and make it to a 2 month monthiversary without becoming an on-off couple...thanks to everyone who gave me input and made me think before reacting... i love you all more than you will ever know!! <33333