finality....
its over....i have no control, and no emotion...i feel utterly numb. i hate this. i am such a horrible person...vulnerability is something no1 should ever have 2 feel. i cant feel happiness, or sadness....just emptiness. i need 2 alone 4 a while so no1 will have 2 deal w/ this but myself. i need space and time...lots of it. rebounding is a horrible thing...its a way in which other ppl r used unknowingly. i dont want 2 be used, or use ne1 else..........................i miss him....sooooo much. i keep having flashbacks of the good times we had, it makes me want 2 cry. i need 2 spend some time w/ kc n matt again. i havent seen them in sooo long bc ive been hangin out w/ babs friends n danny. i miss u casey!!!! please call me when u get back!!!! well, ima go chill i guess.....ttyl