Jun 24, 2004 00:51
man my sleeping habits have gotten horrible!!!! i go 2 bed like super late n sleep super late!!! lol, y do i say super so much? newho...have u ever felt like u just cant get happy abt nething? like ur stuck in an endless rollercoaster, but its not fun, just sad n irritating. idk, maybe my dpms crap is starting early...it seems 2 be earlier n earlier every month...idk what it is, i try 2 smile n be content, but im so not. ryan gideon called me 2day, wantin 2 go out 4 sum coffee or sumthin, id like 2 b friends w/ him again, i wonder if his intentions were more than that. i hope i didnt make him feel like an ass when i told him i have a bf. butchyeah, i went 2 lone star n got my pathetic check of $29.16. i went 2 eat mcd's w/ danny n convinced his manager 2 let him off work. heheh...omg when i went in 2 lone star i was like attacked...app. guys r horny 2day. sigh, ive been wantin 2 do sumthin w/ kc 4 like everrrrr....every movie i wanted 2 see w/ her shes already seen...i stil have no1 2 see harry potter w/!! i spent most of the evening w/ josh. well...i watched him sleep in my lap. i had 1 of those moments where i look @ him n remember how much i luv him...he looked soooooo cute!!! i watched this show his sis was watching called "the ultimate love test". there was a couple on there that exacly reminded me of me n josh. it was heather n frank. lol. i was like omg they're clones of us!!! but they looked nuthin like us, the chik was pretty n short n the guy was skinny n ugly. lololol. 2mrw i have lsu guard practice..ill learn pre game!!! woohoo!!! butchyeah...im anxiously awaiting the present josh got me...i really wanna know what it is...omg i saw the thing matt got kc....it was omg gorgeous!!! sighness....every time matt does sumthin outrageously sweet 4 kc it makes me wanna cry. idk y. SIGH...this whole no reason depressed state thing sux ass...n my mom just made it worse 2day..dumb bitch. i so hate her. well i guess im done venting...ttyl