i don't know how i got this way i know it's not alright.
Heyy ya'll..well geez it's been a day already.Amanda and i got up hella early this morning to go apply for some jobs.Cross your fingers we get hired at one of the three places we applied for.And then i came home and that's where i'm at now.It's been a weird day..i've been like reallly sad about everything.Like i've been thinking a lot and i feel like i've hurt a lot of people.. not intentionally but in some way kind of intentional.i dunno it makes sense in my head.I just feel that the things i did to them were unneccesary and that it all comes down to me being easily influenced and indecisive.I don't like that part of me and some of it has changed but it's impacted my life in a big way.there are soo many things i wish i could have a second or in this case a 4th chance at redoing.gosh..i just wish things were different i guess.i don't have much else to say so i guess i'll end it here.