be careful with this one
I finally broke down and cried today, and a certain someone knows that I’ve needed that since last night. But it felt good. It’s one of those things, that Andrew Henson said… crying, it clears the mind, opens the heart and cleanses the soul. I feel clear, I feel open, and I feel cleansed. I want to kick back in worn in jeans, a tshirt, and my vans, and be like FUCK YOU!!! I think maybe that’s what I need. And I don’t know what’s going on this weekend but maybe I just need one of those nights where I can lash out and be like FUCK YOU and kick back.
I think part of the reason that I feel so normal is because I feel so overwhelmed. I feel overwhelmed with work, or lack there of at the same time. I feel overwhelmed with my home life and what I have to do at home and what my family expects of me. I feel overwhelmed with my friends behaviors. I feel overwhelmed with people who hurt me. I feel overwhelmed by my own emotions.
I feel like I need to be pulled in 1000 different direction to feel right. And that’s how I feel now. I’m being pushed and pulled and all I want to do is cry but it’s the way I want to feel. I want to be able to sit infront of this computer for hours and listen to emo music and write- write poetry, write blogs, write emails to my friends and let them know just how I feel about one another.
I want ot reach out to people and let them know how good of a person they are. And I want to slap people and tell them that they are asses and I hate them for that.
I want to lay my heart out on the line, and at the same time I’m scared shitless of doing that because I don’t know what is going to happen in the next moment. I want to have fun and I want to be serious.
I think part of the reason that I feel so normal is because I feel so overwhelmed. I feel overwhelmed with work, or lack there of at the same time. I feel overwhelmed with my home life and what I have to do at home and what my family expects of me. I feel overwhelmed with my friends behaviors. I feel overwhelmed with people who hurt me. I feel overwhelmed by my own emotions.
I feel like I need to be pulled in 1000 different direction to feel right. And that’s how I feel now. I’m being pushed and pulled and all I want to do is cry but it’s the way I want to feel. I want to be able to sit infront of this computer for hours and listen to emo music and write- write poetry, write blogs, write emails to my friends and let them know just how I feel about one another.
I want ot reach out to people and let them know how good of a person they are. And I want to slap people and tell them that they are asses and I hate them for that.
I want to lay my heart out on the line, and at the same time I’m scared shitless of doing that because I don’t know what is going to happen in the next moment. I want to have fun and I want to be serious.