Dec 27, 2003 18:21
So, I'm very sure about this entry. I can't wait for the new year to come. I will feel as if all the stupid mistakes I made this year will be gone. All the stress will disappear(hopefully). A brand new start...thats how everyone should look at it right? I feel like this new year will seem like going to a new school. Not knowing anyone. People not knowing you. Fresh new start. The chance to change anything about you. For example I can't leave school for the holiday the way I am and come back to school with punk clothes on and a different hair color (Well I did dye my hair sangria and bought converses but just forget that). So my new years revolution will be to live life right...how I really want it to be. To grab those chances when they come along. To not be too chicken shit with new experiences. And of course the wanting to be thinner, happier, and smarter. To get those straight A's that may never actually happen.
RANDOM VISION: Earlier today I was in my room cleaning and I thought of where I would be in the future. I pictured myself as a unempolyed 30 year old woman in a undecorated blah apartment room, drinking like a fish on my sofa watching late night shows in the same pajamas that I had been wearing the last two day. No boyfriend, no friend, no family. JESUS I HOPE I DON'T END UP THAT WAY!!! It was very scary...