HELP!!
hey, this week has been very depressing. School isnt fun at all, i miss a bunch of people that i dont see, and ben and i arent doing so well.
i dont really have any friends in my classes. i mean there are 4 where i have friend like kristen or sarah but in the other 3 im bored as hell because i have no one to talk too.
i miss alina, meggie, kylee, and chelsea sooooo much. i mean i know i never really talked to alina and meggie in school that much but i just miss seeing their faces everyday. and i never see chelsea and kylee during the day and it sucks.
ok well ben..... he is mad at me because im not showing enough affection towards him. seriously dont know why i dont show affection in public but i mean i really do like him. im just really scared that people are going to think im weird i guess.
seriously sometimes i just want to attack ben when i see him in the halls because he is so awesome and i wish he knew that. but what sucks is that now that i dont show any affection he doesnt so me any as well. so i assume he doesnt want to be together anymore.
like when ben,kristen, and i are walking down the hall together he usually walks by kristen and talks to her the whole time and ignores me or thats how i feel. i think he wishes that i had more of kristens personality. which really hurts me to know that because shes my bestfriend and we are very different people.
im afraid that if and when we break up he is going to cling to her more and it is going to make me feel so jealous. i really do like ben a lot, and more then he knows so i hope things work out because im sick of crying over it. any advice? please share!
i dont really have any friends in my classes. i mean there are 4 where i have friend like kristen or sarah but in the other 3 im bored as hell because i have no one to talk too.
i miss alina, meggie, kylee, and chelsea sooooo much. i mean i know i never really talked to alina and meggie in school that much but i just miss seeing their faces everyday. and i never see chelsea and kylee during the day and it sucks.
ok well ben..... he is mad at me because im not showing enough affection towards him. seriously dont know why i dont show affection in public but i mean i really do like him. im just really scared that people are going to think im weird i guess.
seriously sometimes i just want to attack ben when i see him in the halls because he is so awesome and i wish he knew that. but what sucks is that now that i dont show any affection he doesnt so me any as well. so i assume he doesnt want to be together anymore.
like when ben,kristen, and i are walking down the hall together he usually walks by kristen and talks to her the whole time and ignores me or thats how i feel. i think he wishes that i had more of kristens personality. which really hurts me to know that because shes my bestfriend and we are very different people.
im afraid that if and when we break up he is going to cling to her more and it is going to make me feel so jealous. i really do like ben a lot, and more then he knows so i hope things work out because im sick of crying over it. any advice? please share!