oct 3rd....
it's already oct 3rd, and normally i would think this was a great thing. this quarter ends in less than a month, and i feel as if i've only been here for a few weeks. i dont get why time i going so fast. dont get me wrong i'm def excited that, it's getting closer and closer to june, and graduating..from this hell hole i call high school. Again dont get my wrong, i love high school and all of my friends, but the actually school and the fact that euclid cant pass a levy. Jesus, people ask so much from this city, and never give anything back. I mean i understand you dont want to give anymore money. but dont tel me you cant pay a little more in taxes but you cant buy louis viuton (sp). i dont get it. You already had your education and somene payed for it, so pay for mines and i'll go and pay for someone elses...sometimes old people piss me off. they one of the main reasons. we cant pass this levy. i mean, my parents also pay for your social serciuty, and you cant pay for my education. and what really pisses me off, is people who graduted from euclid, wont pass the levy, and people who's children go to Euclid. but whatever...back to what i was saying...
As badly as i want to graduate, and move on, the closer i get to june the closer i get to feb. and in feb adam leaves, NOT for california but iraq. and i dont think i've said this outloud, or even to anymore. but it really does scare me, i'm not sure for who yet, or maybe more him. but it just scares the hell out of me. i'm not going to lie. and i know i chose to date him and wouldnt have it any other way, but i get so upset at people around here who complain and what not. it just makes me mad, i have no pity on you at all. and that sounds mean, but i never asked for any, from anyone...i might have been like i'm not in a good mood..and gone on with my day...but whatever.
so today i have this HUGE EURO test...i'm scared to death of that as well. i've come to realize who much i hate school..and how bad they make you feel. counslers are supposed to be there to make sure your doing well. i dont feel as if my counsilers ever did that for me. they made sure i was taking 5 credits and that;s all. and when you know what you want to do, and what not they discourage you from having an opinion. like i'm almost 18 yrs old. i want to make some decisions, and you are making the wrong ones for me. i can pick my own classes, but i need you there to help me. CASE IN POINT, i want to go to a small college, i hate BIG schools, you just become no one to them. even tho I KNOW all of my teachers and princle and everything. i still dont feel as if i can talk to all of them. i mean they said small schoosl would be better, but i have larger class sizes...which isnt good, which also goes along with "no child left behid". i keep getting off the topic, but whatever. i hate being in the computer lab, in this class (dangers of indifference) it's supposed to be a discussion class, and i dont feel as if were discussing things, and its only a semister class..so there's limited time. Whatever....
As badly as i want to graduate, and move on, the closer i get to june the closer i get to feb. and in feb adam leaves, NOT for california but iraq. and i dont think i've said this outloud, or even to anymore. but it really does scare me, i'm not sure for who yet, or maybe more him. but it just scares the hell out of me. i'm not going to lie. and i know i chose to date him and wouldnt have it any other way, but i get so upset at people around here who complain and what not. it just makes me mad, i have no pity on you at all. and that sounds mean, but i never asked for any, from anyone...i might have been like i'm not in a good mood..and gone on with my day...but whatever.
so today i have this HUGE EURO test...i'm scared to death of that as well. i've come to realize who much i hate school..and how bad they make you feel. counslers are supposed to be there to make sure your doing well. i dont feel as if my counsilers ever did that for me. they made sure i was taking 5 credits and that;s all. and when you know what you want to do, and what not they discourage you from having an opinion. like i'm almost 18 yrs old. i want to make some decisions, and you are making the wrong ones for me. i can pick my own classes, but i need you there to help me. CASE IN POINT, i want to go to a small college, i hate BIG schools, you just become no one to them. even tho I KNOW all of my teachers and princle and everything. i still dont feel as if i can talk to all of them. i mean they said small schoosl would be better, but i have larger class sizes...which isnt good, which also goes along with "no child left behid". i keep getting off the topic, but whatever. i hate being in the computer lab, in this class (dangers of indifference) it's supposed to be a discussion class, and i dont feel as if were discussing things, and its only a semister class..so there's limited time. Whatever....