This is what is going on
For those who want to read this.
I am not going to rush into anything I will have to be 100% sure of every move that I make cause the whole from being with Kevin for awhile and then going out with Brian was noting but Stupid. I don’t want to make that mistake again. I know James has come back into my life and everything seems to be going well but the fact is that he is there and I am here and I think what we need to happen is to talk to each other and start over cause we cant just start off where we left off. Cause that wont work so I think we need to talk and get to know one another again. Samantha asked me if I would sleep with him right away and no I wouldn’t cause we are taking it from the beginning and I’m taking things slow. To add that right now wouldn’t be good. One thing is that he is going to be in Hawaii for another year or two with the navy he mention a little while back if I would move in with him . Well the only way I would do that is if I knew this would be a long term thing and that I could still go to school and work and do all the things that I want to do in my life. Cause something like that is serious and I need to be smart if he wants to do that. I’m going to be honest I love the boy to death and when I talked to him again on the phone it hit me how much I have missed him and talking and laughing . I want to believe that we had to go through all this in order to realize that maybe we are meant to be . That’s only what I wish but I know not to get ahead of myself and to be careful and take time . Before I can even think about getting back together or any of that his divorce has to get completed until that happens we are just going to talk and be friends for the time being. but the thing is that when we were texting back and forth and it was time for him to go he said love you . which I didn’t know what to say or how to react to that. His mom said that she is glad that we are talking again. So much has happened in such a short time period. I know that a lot of people probably think it is dumb that I am talking to him again but in my heart it feels right and my mind just is telling to be careful . I know also that if I did move there my parents would be extremely angry as well as my family but I am going to do what makes me happy and I think that’s what matters. I’m not going to let my dreams die I plan to complete them no matter where I am .
Alright I’m going to post some things that he wrote and I want to know what you all think.
~ how are you doing, its been a really long time and I’m sorry for not talking to you in a while, just wanted to say I still think about you a lot. and I worry about you do you have a b/f. anyways get back to me I’m sure you have a bunch of questions for me, well I miss you a lot.
love you
James
~ well things could be better, she’s not like you though me and you never fought that’s what I loved about you, but her she always wants to fight. I’m surprised we are still married. maybe not for long though. I got a really good thing going on right now though, me and a friend are starting up a gym franchise, and drag strip. with the help of brad friend whos a pro body builder. anyways send me some pix I would love to see what you look like now
~ ive just been thinking about you a lot lately and I want to be friends again maybe more. if that’s what your asking
~ I know you don’t, I don’t plan on it, just know I still love you, and I don’t plan on me and her lasting much longer.
~ me and her are separated she doesn’t even live with me right now, we are practically in the process of divorce. its been so long since ive had any emotional contact with anyone. they are just pictures, please, for my birthday, I’m 21 now.
~ I will defiantly call you, ill be here for 2 more years maybe one, I’m expecting to get divorced, and hoping to get back with you. thank you for saying yes for the pix it means a lot, I didn’t get much for my bday.
~hey no I don’t have a phone she ran up the bill and I didn’t pay it. ill try to call you at work. I would like to get back together. just ive me time ok.
~ well what do you want are you willing to move here
~ do you think you can be happy with me. were you happy with me?
~ honestly you were the only one I was happy with. ever. dead serious
~ because you were still in school and it was driving me nuts not seeing you
~I’m sorry, I never should have left you. it was stupid. your the most beautiful and best girl I was ever with
~ it was nice talking to you yesterday its been a while since I heard your voice
~ no its the work phone I use in Oahu don’t call me there unless I tell you to first. I don’t care what you look like right now I’m sure your gorgeous
I WOULD LIKE SOME INPUT IT WOULD BE GREAT
I am not going to rush into anything I will have to be 100% sure of every move that I make cause the whole from being with Kevin for awhile and then going out with Brian was noting but Stupid. I don’t want to make that mistake again. I know James has come back into my life and everything seems to be going well but the fact is that he is there and I am here and I think what we need to happen is to talk to each other and start over cause we cant just start off where we left off. Cause that wont work so I think we need to talk and get to know one another again. Samantha asked me if I would sleep with him right away and no I wouldn’t cause we are taking it from the beginning and I’m taking things slow. To add that right now wouldn’t be good. One thing is that he is going to be in Hawaii for another year or two with the navy he mention a little while back if I would move in with him . Well the only way I would do that is if I knew this would be a long term thing and that I could still go to school and work and do all the things that I want to do in my life. Cause something like that is serious and I need to be smart if he wants to do that. I’m going to be honest I love the boy to death and when I talked to him again on the phone it hit me how much I have missed him and talking and laughing . I want to believe that we had to go through all this in order to realize that maybe we are meant to be . That’s only what I wish but I know not to get ahead of myself and to be careful and take time . Before I can even think about getting back together or any of that his divorce has to get completed until that happens we are just going to talk and be friends for the time being. but the thing is that when we were texting back and forth and it was time for him to go he said love you . which I didn’t know what to say or how to react to that. His mom said that she is glad that we are talking again. So much has happened in such a short time period. I know that a lot of people probably think it is dumb that I am talking to him again but in my heart it feels right and my mind just is telling to be careful . I know also that if I did move there my parents would be extremely angry as well as my family but I am going to do what makes me happy and I think that’s what matters. I’m not going to let my dreams die I plan to complete them no matter where I am .
Alright I’m going to post some things that he wrote and I want to know what you all think.
~ how are you doing, its been a really long time and I’m sorry for not talking to you in a while, just wanted to say I still think about you a lot. and I worry about you do you have a b/f. anyways get back to me I’m sure you have a bunch of questions for me, well I miss you a lot.
love you
James
~ well things could be better, she’s not like you though me and you never fought that’s what I loved about you, but her she always wants to fight. I’m surprised we are still married. maybe not for long though. I got a really good thing going on right now though, me and a friend are starting up a gym franchise, and drag strip. with the help of brad friend whos a pro body builder. anyways send me some pix I would love to see what you look like now
~ ive just been thinking about you a lot lately and I want to be friends again maybe more. if that’s what your asking
~ I know you don’t, I don’t plan on it, just know I still love you, and I don’t plan on me and her lasting much longer.
~ me and her are separated she doesn’t even live with me right now, we are practically in the process of divorce. its been so long since ive had any emotional contact with anyone. they are just pictures, please, for my birthday, I’m 21 now.
~ I will defiantly call you, ill be here for 2 more years maybe one, I’m expecting to get divorced, and hoping to get back with you. thank you for saying yes for the pix it means a lot, I didn’t get much for my bday.
~hey no I don’t have a phone she ran up the bill and I didn’t pay it. ill try to call you at work. I would like to get back together. just ive me time ok.
~ well what do you want are you willing to move here
~ do you think you can be happy with me. were you happy with me?
~ honestly you were the only one I was happy with. ever. dead serious
~ because you were still in school and it was driving me nuts not seeing you
~I’m sorry, I never should have left you. it was stupid. your the most beautiful and best girl I was ever with
~ it was nice talking to you yesterday its been a while since I heard your voice
~ no its the work phone I use in Oahu don’t call me there unless I tell you to first. I don’t care what you look like right now I’m sure your gorgeous
I WOULD LIKE SOME INPUT IT WOULD BE GREAT