So... that happened
So, I got fired as a friend yesterday. I wasn't actually surprised - it felt like this had been a long time coming. Still, I'm sad and disappointed, and my ego is a bit bruised.
It sucks to be made to feel disposable. Or like you're not a good friend. The latter of which I was already feeling, but ultimately, you don't have much of a friendship to lose if the relationship is unbalanced. I'd hoped to restore the balance, but I guess throwing it all away is a solution, too. A quicker fix.
In a way I suppose it's for the best. I felt like I was walking on eggshells and everything I said was the wrong thing, and I was wracking my brain trying to find a way to fix things, or at least make them better. Which would've been a wasted effort, I guess, since it seems the decision had already been made without me. So now I can process this last thing, and then... move on. At least that'll free up some space in my head.
Be well, friend. I hope you find what you're looking for.
It sucks to be made to feel disposable. Or like you're not a good friend. The latter of which I was already feeling, but ultimately, you don't have much of a friendship to lose if the relationship is unbalanced. I'd hoped to restore the balance, but I guess throwing it all away is a solution, too. A quicker fix.
In a way I suppose it's for the best. I felt like I was walking on eggshells and everything I said was the wrong thing, and I was wracking my brain trying to find a way to fix things, or at least make them better. Which would've been a wasted effort, I guess, since it seems the decision had already been made without me. So now I can process this last thing, and then... move on. At least that'll free up some space in my head.
Be well, friend. I hope you find what you're looking for.