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He said I could have anything that I want. I don't know what to do. I don't want to feel like I'm passing up what could be my happily ever after, but I don't want to go through this again. I feel like shit. I want a BABY. right now. right fucking now. Life is full of bullshit and I just want the one real thing in the world to be mine. I just realised that I am really good at not thinking about things that bother me. Good and bad to that.
Also I had a dream last night that I lost my cell phone and was late to work and my mom wouldn't drive me even though she was supposed to. Woke up afraid I was late for work, I wasn't. Realised later that the dream was actually about my mom not giving a flying fuck about me. SCARY.
Also I had a dream last night that I lost my cell phone and was late to work and my mom wouldn't drive me even though she was supposed to. Woke up afraid I was late for work, I wasn't. Realised later that the dream was actually about my mom not giving a flying fuck about me. SCARY.