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Ok, so i just got in from work, first day, i did a night shift, it was ok. Im the new kid along with 2 new girls, ones ok and the other ... well shes a rude girl called Chantell, nuf said?
Yeah, it all went ok, then Jamie rang, i really wanted to answer but i couldnt because i was working. I got all upset and for a while i felt almost as shitty as yesterday.
I wanna ring him back but i dont. If i do then i dont know what he'll say, will he shout? will he be really quiet? If I dont then he'll think I dont care. I dont want to though because I'll have to explain and I actually remember close to nothing.
This is all so fucked up.
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Yeah, so Jamie just rang. I feel bad that he rang me when im the one in the wrong. We didnt talk for long coz he had to go. It was weirder than i thought it would be. We actually talked about stuff other than this. It was almost like a normal phone conversation. This makes me feel even worse, I dont know why, it just does. I feel really shitty now, coz like he spoke to me normally but I know things arent normal and we might not ever be proper friends again.
Im soooooooooo jelous of Ben!
Yeah, it all went ok, then Jamie rang, i really wanted to answer but i couldnt because i was working. I got all upset and for a while i felt almost as shitty as yesterday.
I wanna ring him back but i dont. If i do then i dont know what he'll say, will he shout? will he be really quiet? If I dont then he'll think I dont care. I dont want to though because I'll have to explain and I actually remember close to nothing.
This is all so fucked up.
UPDATED
Yeah, so Jamie just rang. I feel bad that he rang me when im the one in the wrong. We didnt talk for long coz he had to go. It was weirder than i thought it would be. We actually talked about stuff other than this. It was almost like a normal phone conversation. This makes me feel even worse, I dont know why, it just does. I feel really shitty now, coz like he spoke to me normally but I know things arent normal and we might not ever be proper friends again.
Im soooooooooo jelous of Ben!