Karma
I was layin in bed last night thinking about my life. That's when i realized the stark difference between this year and last year. This time last year, as i'm sure y'all remember, i was not too happy about life in general, though i was starting to bounce back thanks to my awesome friends and the best birthday ever (the first suprise party where i was truly surprised). Anyways, this year I'm just happier in general. I just got back from spring break and, sure 5 girls cramped together for a week created plenty of drama and cattiness, but I had a ball. Even when I realized my plans for the last night weren't going to work out. Then I felt like a bitch for being upset and not really enjoying myself earlier that night. Other not wonderful things have happened this semester/year. Losing my favorite relative tops the list. It still upsets me to dwell on it for too long. which is why I won't right now. Anyways, this year I've been able to truly see all the good in my life, even through the bad. I have a wonderful group of friends who, even though i wanted to strangle a couple last week (love y'all though :)), I really grew closer to. I have the best sisters I could have asked for. Y'all amaze me everyday with your love, honor, and truth. Of course my family, who even though I don't communicate with nearly enough continue to be there for me to support me and are willing to do anything for me, including helping me with a speeding ticket right before spring break and letting 5 college-girls on spring break stay with you (still trying to figure out what my sister was thinking). My boyfriend...I just can't describe how happy he makes me. My self-esteem took a real blow the last time and he never wastes an opportunity to build it back up, even though he doesn't realize it. I blame (or is it credit?) God for all of this good too. He has been the ultimate at being there for me, even when i didn't really want Him there. Now I sound like I'm accepting an Academy Award or something. Sorry y'all have to listen to it! But i was thinking about the Alicia Keys song "Karma" and I realized it's true that what goes around comes around. You reap what you sow. I've tried to start seeing to good in all situations. Losing my aunt made me realize what a truly exceptional woman she was. I got to meet and befriend 3 new second-cousins, help celebrate a first birthday, see other family i never get to otherwise, and realize that Alex is the strongest guy I know to deliver a eulogy at his mother's funeral. The minister talked about how your life will change as a result of knowing Nora Lee. Well, she was the ultimate at being nice to EVERYONE, including those that don't necessarily deserve it. Family and animals were what mattered most to her and you know it. Who else would grill sirloin for the dogs? Sometimes they ate better than the humans! My parents selling my childhood home sucks as well, but at least I've been bale to have that kind of sense of home. I've tried to explain to melissa what it means to be southern and I think a large part of it is that sense of home, community, and tradition. Knowing and remembering where you came, for better or worse, from helps you understand who you are today and where you're going. I really do feel that the sense of tradition and history is uniquely southern, even though some harp on the past and don't use it to better themselves today. I also learned the hospitality of people. I've had so many offers of places to stay anytime i want to visit, some even promised keys so I can come and go as i please. You definately don't get that anywhere else.
I would post the lyrics to "Karma" but after reading them, the situtation doesn't totally apply. but know that I'm finally happy and it doesn't matter if he does or doesn't come back around. Selfishly i want him to realize things i did for him, but even if he doesn't, it's his loss and good riddence. Just remember "What goes around comes around. What goes up must come down. Now who's cryin...it's called karma baby and it comes around." In the end, everyone will get what they ultimately deserve. Karma's a bitch.
I would post the lyrics to "Karma" but after reading them, the situtation doesn't totally apply. but know that I'm finally happy and it doesn't matter if he does or doesn't come back around. Selfishly i want him to realize things i did for him, but even if he doesn't, it's his loss and good riddence. Just remember "What goes around comes around. What goes up must come down. Now who's cryin...it's called karma baby and it comes around." In the end, everyone will get what they ultimately deserve. Karma's a bitch.