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So I'm sitting in here in almost complete darkness on my roommies computer because I'm not ready for bed yet. I am so looking forward to going home on Saturday that it is the only thing keeping me going this week.
I absolutely cannot imagine myself going to school anywhere else but Maryland. There is no other school for me, but I am ready to come back in the Spring with a fresh start.
Christmas is going to be really hard this year. Our family party is on Sunday, and I am really excited for it and dreading it at the same time. I don't think it has really set into me that my grandfather is gone. I still believe that I am going to see him when I get home, and that the Christmas Eve Open House will go on like it has since I was born. Christmas was so much a tradition in our family that it is heartbreaking to think of celebrating Christmas without him. I think of him as the Christmas spirit, and I just miss him. I miss knowing that I could walk down the street to see him. I haven't really had much time to grieve. Part of me feels like it has been ages since he died, and part of me feels like it just happened. In reality, it's been a little over 2 weeks. I think I just need to go home and be with my family. I feel like I have been severed from them by being at school.
I want to talk to my sister. I feel like I haven't talked to her in ages. I miss her a lot when I am here.
I am so excited to be able to hang out with Amy and Amanda for the next month and a half. It will be great to just hang out without worrying about school or anything. I am excited to read for fun and not read for assignments. I am SUPER excited to see Katie. It has been way too long, since the end of July, I think.
Most of all, I think I am excited to have my own room. Without a doubt, I will miss living with someone, and I will miss my floormates, but I think I will thoroughly enjoy the alone time.
Today I reworked my schedule so it is even better than before. Although I am taking two lit. courses, which definitly spells a lot of reading for next semester. I also have a class that has a discussion section online, which I am excited about, and then a class that has a discussion section with a time to be announced. I really don't understand how that can work. If the discussion time selected doesn't work for me, I guess I will have to drop the class right away and find something else to take in it's place. I'll worry about that later though, i guess.
I have another exam on Friday afternoon, then one on Saturday, and then I AM HOME!!!!! I could not be more excited! <3
alright, goodnight. time for bed. :-)
I absolutely cannot imagine myself going to school anywhere else but Maryland. There is no other school for me, but I am ready to come back in the Spring with a fresh start.
Christmas is going to be really hard this year. Our family party is on Sunday, and I am really excited for it and dreading it at the same time. I don't think it has really set into me that my grandfather is gone. I still believe that I am going to see him when I get home, and that the Christmas Eve Open House will go on like it has since I was born. Christmas was so much a tradition in our family that it is heartbreaking to think of celebrating Christmas without him. I think of him as the Christmas spirit, and I just miss him. I miss knowing that I could walk down the street to see him. I haven't really had much time to grieve. Part of me feels like it has been ages since he died, and part of me feels like it just happened. In reality, it's been a little over 2 weeks. I think I just need to go home and be with my family. I feel like I have been severed from them by being at school.
I want to talk to my sister. I feel like I haven't talked to her in ages. I miss her a lot when I am here.
I am so excited to be able to hang out with Amy and Amanda for the next month and a half. It will be great to just hang out without worrying about school or anything. I am excited to read for fun and not read for assignments. I am SUPER excited to see Katie. It has been way too long, since the end of July, I think.
Most of all, I think I am excited to have my own room. Without a doubt, I will miss living with someone, and I will miss my floormates, but I think I will thoroughly enjoy the alone time.
Today I reworked my schedule so it is even better than before. Although I am taking two lit. courses, which definitly spells a lot of reading for next semester. I also have a class that has a discussion section online, which I am excited about, and then a class that has a discussion section with a time to be announced. I really don't understand how that can work. If the discussion time selected doesn't work for me, I guess I will have to drop the class right away and find something else to take in it's place. I'll worry about that later though, i guess.
I have another exam on Friday afternoon, then one on Saturday, and then I AM HOME!!!!! I could not be more excited! <3
alright, goodnight. time for bed. :-)