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You drive me crazy!
Like, I don't know how to explain it... I'm so in love with you and you're EVERYTHING I have ever wanted. You don't leave when I push and you care about me more than anyone else ever has. But that scares the fuck out of me.... I'm used to doing what I want with minimal consiquence but since you care I know I can really hurt you and I don't want to hurt you, ever. I love you so much. I would already be dead if you weren't in my life. I don't know if I believe in god but I know I have an angel watching out for me cuz they sent me you right when I needed someone. You made me quit cutting when so many other people tried and failed and all you had to do was create an ultimatium, "stop or I'm leaving". Honnestly you really weren't like super close to me then, but the fact that someone was making that statement cuz they cared so much really ment something to me. Yes there are things that might make me not interested like youre such a nerd! and I hate facial hair and smoking but you, You're just so special to me that none of that matters. Infact it makes me love you more. I love that you're a bad boy and that you've grown up more than other boys. But you care so deeply, not just about me, you are very pessionate in general and it shows. You are amazing. We have so much in common it ROCKS! We could, like, watch T.V. or movies all day and be happy or just hang out and I love it! I don't feel like I have to go out of my way to entertain you. You know all my flaws and defects and you still want to fight for me and that blows my mind, like I cant figure out why you haven't left me yet. Not that I'm complaining, I love having you around, its just everyone else left. You love me for me, not who I pretend to be or who you want me to be but for who I actually am, Youre the boy every girl dreams of finding. Youre my prince charming and I love you so much. It's stupid how much I love you considering we've never met but I do! Im so hoplessly in love with you! I dream about you and freak out about meeting you. I wanna be good enough for your friends and family and I'm willing to do anything to be in your life. But I don't have to do anything, you love my just the way I am and that makes me feel warm and safe. I can't wait to tell our kids how we met and how much I loved you and how much I still love you. You're absolutely perfect for m baby and I love you so very very much.