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it's at the point in time when you decide what's gonna be your choice of life... should i die or wait to see what happens.. I'm really sorry all of you if this happens to be my last entry... what's the point of a family if all they can do is lead you to craziness? well i personally don't know... I am really really sorry if i lose my ehad and end it all tonight okay? just know that i love everyone of you and it's no one's fault..it just happens to be.. i know this might cause trouble for my mom especially but I really didn't mean to.. it's just that I really can't live in fear or take any of this
It's not the knife i'm scared of.. it's the prolem after that.. i am realy really sorry if this is a burden to anyone.. just le it be guys.. again i love you all remember that.. To thanh.. you've been the bestest of friends.. no words can express... ireal.. you also have made my last days of happiness.. jeff since i've known you you've been nothing but truoble. but i chose to be that way.. and really i do care about you... i don't know what else to say.bobby, although i just met yu not so long ago i felt like i've known you since i was born.. always makin me feel better. i will miss you...mr wright.. i'm sorry i made stupid decision......mr lacoste.. it seems that his would never happen right?.. i was looking forward to that disney trip too.. ahah funny how things go.now you don't have to worry about me anymore...*laughs* all gone...walter.. i don't know what ws happenin in your head back then but now i don't have to worry anymore .. now tha i rethink it. that crush i had on you was relly dumb.. i though i knew you.. guess not..hah i laugh at my stupidity..everyne else who i din't have time to mention that just means that i can't talk about it...who ever said good byes ar eeasy to say?alright i'm getting kindda really cold here... i guess this is the before feeling.. i'm not sure if ima actually do this or not but it feels like it. i mean better be safe then sorry right?i just wanted to write this in case.. ahaha i make it sound like it's easy.. by the time anyone gets this it'll be over.. ahah or just a new beginning..you'll see.. Ireal you will probably be the first.. don't tell anyone anything okay? not until you actualy see my body...if after a week you don' hear from me.. i'm am sure i'll be watching you from somewhere.. hopefully from above..well just in case there were any confusions about who i like..i don't think i ever like anyone now that i think about it... but damn was bobby close.. ahaha i can't believe i never met him sooner .. maybe none this would have ever been. dad...it's not your fault... i know it's the beer talking... but i really hope you have a good life.. mom. although you may yell at me.. i know you care.. i don't want any truole from this.. just pretend i was never born an i'll repay you in another life okay? i really love you.. and if i happen to still be alive i don't want to be reminded of this.. i really think i am gonna do it.. bye guyss you've been the best.....( approximate time i will kill myself..12.00 am)
It's not the knife i'm scared of.. it's the prolem after that.. i am realy really sorry if this is a burden to anyone.. just le it be guys.. again i love you all remember that.. To thanh.. you've been the bestest of friends.. no words can express... ireal.. you also have made my last days of happiness.. jeff since i've known you you've been nothing but truoble. but i chose to be that way.. and really i do care about you... i don't know what else to say.bobby, although i just met yu not so long ago i felt like i've known you since i was born.. always makin me feel better. i will miss you...mr wright.. i'm sorry i made stupid decision......mr lacoste.. it seems that his would never happen right?.. i was looking forward to that disney trip too.. ahah funny how things go.now you don't have to worry about me anymore...*laughs* all gone...walter.. i don't know what ws happenin in your head back then but now i don't have to worry anymore .. now tha i rethink it. that crush i had on you was relly dumb.. i though i knew you.. guess not..hah i laugh at my stupidity..everyne else who i din't have time to mention that just means that i can't talk about it...who ever said good byes ar eeasy to say?alright i'm getting kindda really cold here... i guess this is the before feeling.. i'm not sure if ima actually do this or not but it feels like it. i mean better be safe then sorry right?i just wanted to write this in case.. ahaha i make it sound like it's easy.. by the time anyone gets this it'll be over.. ahah or just a new beginning..you'll see.. Ireal you will probably be the first.. don't tell anyone anything okay? not until you actualy see my body...if after a week you don' hear from me.. i'm am sure i'll be watching you from somewhere.. hopefully from above..well just in case there were any confusions about who i like..i don't think i ever like anyone now that i think about it... but damn was bobby close.. ahaha i can't believe i never met him sooner .. maybe none this would have ever been. dad...it's not your fault... i know it's the beer talking... but i really hope you have a good life.. mom. although you may yell at me.. i know you care.. i don't want any truole from this.. just pretend i was never born an i'll repay you in another life okay? i really love you.. and if i happen to still be alive i don't want to be reminded of this.. i really think i am gonna do it.. bye guyss you've been the best.....( approximate time i will kill myself..12.00 am)