(Okay before I get talking let me say that I am completely sober right now. It's too fucking hot for alcohol today).
I'm a member of the SFB and I'm IN a relationship--talk about a debacle!!
I see a lot of myself in your post and if I have anything to add about the idea of being alone, it's this: based on my experiences the past few months, it becomes less about wanting to be alone and more about learning to adapt because you're always LEFT alone. I couldn't get my SO to talk to me or do activities with me, so I could either feel hurt about it or just do my activity on my own. Going to a movie alone or a museum alone suck ass, but it beats sitting idle.
The problem I run into now is that I've become so efficient at being self-sufficient that I'm not sure how I'm going to adapt when I DO start dating again. When I figure that one out I'll let you know.
The difference is whether or not I'll remember posting, lol. Actually I bring up my sobriety as an indication that I'm actually THINKING while I post, which I don't always do when I've had a few. =p
Also, let me also address that I enjoy the abandonment. They do stuff, i decline. I've grown so fed up with all the crap that's been involved with these guys that it isn't even worth the effort to care anymore. Its gotten to that point that being in the same room with them, my hostile nature grows more rapidly. it sucks it turns out this way but you know, after dealing almost a year of just not having trust in your own gf, being back-stabbed by people i never really liked, watching them fight my battle that i wanted nothing more to do with it
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I'm a member of the SFB and I'm IN a relationship--talk about a debacle!!
I see a lot of myself in your post and if I have anything to add about the idea of being alone, it's this: based on my experiences the past few months, it becomes less about wanting to be alone and more about learning to adapt because you're always LEFT alone. I couldn't get my SO to talk to me or do activities with me, so I could either feel hurt about it or just do my activity on my own. Going to a movie alone or a museum alone suck ass, but it beats sitting idle.
The problem I run into now is that I've become so efficient at being self-sufficient that I'm not sure how I'm going to adapt when I DO start dating again. When I figure that one out I'll let you know.
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