a new year and a BETTER tina
so its the last day of winter break, and i have spent the entire day thinking. its a new year, things need to be changed, i need to be changed, basically my life needs to have some sort of change, because the way it is now i cant handle.
i wanna lose 10-15lbs. i wanna be nicer to ppl that bug me. i dont want little things to get to me nemore. i want to be able to tell ppl if i have a problem b4 someone else tells them n it gets a lot worse. i want to stop being jealous person. i want to stop smoking ciggs. i want to go to the best college for me even if it means leaven the ppl i love(but it prob wont happen). i want my parents to look at me and truely like me and like the person that i have become. i wanna for the first time love myself when i look in the mirror. i want to stop comparing myself to other ppl. i wanna do well and have fun in my senior years, party hard but not to fall down. i want to forget the past that eats me up inside and takes me over, but always remeber the good memories. i want to be more independent. i want to stop crying so much. i want to stop putting on a fake smile all the time and make it real. i need to learn to suck shit up and not to crumble so easily. i need to learn not to give my whole heart to some ppl bc they end up breaking it. i want to learn to take shots better :). i want to find a guy that wont screw me over(or screw someone else). i need to learn that everything isnt always about me and i shoudlnt take everything so personaly. and mostly i want 2006 to prove that i can change, i am determined to.