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wow so i havent updated my journal..well ever haha i never saw a point to it, always thinking that ppl wud either never look at it, or that ppl wud and i wouldnt want them to know what i realli thought.
at this point in my life i dont know how i feel about things, always feeling pressured, always wanting to be "good enough"...but for who?
i dont know who to trust at this point in my life, the ppl who i thought were there for me turned out to be the very ppl that were the enemys...
somtimes things happen and u get so swept up in the current, that u dont relize what ur doing, and how it will affect u, and sometimes u just dont care...
so MAD drama has been going on...well thats basically my life now, and i always seem to be rite in the dead center of it. for once i wud love to just watch it, and not be involoved, but thats asking too much.
so yea its my birthday tomm, but for some reason i just dont seemt o care that much. i remeber like every year i wud have a count down, anticipating the day. but this year is diff, this is the year where my entire life changed, and i cant seem to keep up
at this point in my life i dont know how i feel about things, always feeling pressured, always wanting to be "good enough"...but for who?
i dont know who to trust at this point in my life, the ppl who i thought were there for me turned out to be the very ppl that were the enemys...
somtimes things happen and u get so swept up in the current, that u dont relize what ur doing, and how it will affect u, and sometimes u just dont care...
so MAD drama has been going on...well thats basically my life now, and i always seem to be rite in the dead center of it. for once i wud love to just watch it, and not be involoved, but thats asking too much.
so yea its my birthday tomm, but for some reason i just dont seemt o care that much. i remeber like every year i wud have a count down, anticipating the day. but this year is diff, this is the year where my entire life changed, and i cant seem to keep up