Find me in Love with you chp. 18
Title: Find me in Love with you chp. 18: Junsu
Author: tine_cheese
Rating: NC-17
Length: [11/?] series
Warnings: Yaoi, Sex
Genre: Drama and Romance
Pairings: YunJae, YooSu, JaeSu
Summary: As a host, Yunho was the best in all of Seoul. He was hot, handsome, and experienced. Jaejoong on the other hand was a big businessman who loves to party as much as he loves to make money. Even though Jaejoong always did one night stands, he came back to Yunho again and again and again because truth to be told, he was first first. As days past, the well known host was planned to get married by his parents and Jaejoong soon found out how he loved him. But Jaejoong's business partner, Junsu knows he loves him so. Who would be each other's destiny? Would they break free?
They Meet Again
Making him Forget
2 Years Later
Do you Love me...
Can't Stay Away
In Total Denial
Second ThoughtsAcceptance, he is in Love
Love Confessions
Love in Bed and Other Places
The More it Shows
Thanking Junsu
Confession, Damnation, Destination
Changmin's Lover
Determination is Key
Lunch Dates
Suddeny Changes
A tear escaped Jaejoong's right eye, seeing his lover go was the last thing he wanted to see. He heaved a sigh and forced a smile, "Take care of yourself while you're away, okay?" he cupped Yunho's face with both of the palm of his hands and kissed him. Yunho's arms wrapped around Jaejoong's slim waist and squeezed him, lifting him up a little. Jaejoong sensed his tears coming once again.
"I love you Jaejoong-ah, that'll never change" he whispered into Jaejoong's ear before parting with his sobbing lover.
Jaejoong managed to say he loves Yunho before they completely parted. His hands covered his quivering mouth as his eyes spilled more tears. He repeated those three words as he saw Yunho leave him.
Yunho kept walking away from his lover, telling himself not to look back. He knew if he did, he would be able to leave. He knew it.
He inhaled and closed his eyes, "I'll come back for you, Jaejoong-ah. I love you"
He opened his eyes and kept walking away from Jaejoong, his own lips trembling as well.
Jaejoong's eyes grew blurry due to the tears in his eyes, he blinked and Yunho was gone. No...Yunho-ah...I...I take it back....I don't want you to go...I'll...I'll get my HR team on this and you won't have to lift a finger. I'll protect you. I have the money to make us a new house with security and everything! His shoulders started shaking because of his violent silent cries in the midst of the airport. You won't have to leave me behind...
Just then, a pair of arms hugged Jaejoong and squeezed him gently. "Hyung, its alright. Don't cry anymore" a very particular voice cooed, caressing Jaejoong's arm.
"Junsu-ah" Jaejoong looked at the figure hugging him, "What-" he hiccuped, "are you-" he hiccuped again, "doing here?" his hiccups kept coming without consent. Junsu frowned a little and wiped Jaejoong's trail of tears with his thumbs then gazed at his eyes. "I wanted to make sure you made it home" he smiled gently, "You okay?" he tried his best to smile.
Jaejoong nodded in response, "Yeah..." he bit his lower lip and stopped himself from shedding anymore tears.
It was over. Yunho was in the plane. There was nothing he could've done because it wouldn't be reasonable. They talked it out and this was their plan. They both agreed to it.
"Jaejoong hyung, you wanna go and grab a bite to eat?" Junsu didn't find any other question to ask at the moment.
Jaejoong replied with a soft smile, "Yeah" he nodded.
A week after Yunho left....
Jaejoong's lips curled into a smile, hearing his husband's voice was just the cure for his lonely days.
"Hey" he sighed, a bright a smile across his face.
"You miss me?" Yunho teased, sensing that smile upon his lover's face.
Jaejoong pouted, "Hmm...I don't know. Though I have been thinking of you ever since you left. Other than that, I don't really know" he chuckled and gave in. Whatever maneuver he was trying to pull, it didn't work. "I miss you...a lot" he confessed.
"I miss you too" came in reply with a deep sigh.
"So..." Jaejoong didn't want to seem so sad, "...did you eat yet?" he asked.
"Yeah, I ate dinner before I called you" he answered.
"What did you eat? Is it better than my cooking?"
"Ramen-- and of course your cooking's better" he answered, a hint of boastfulness in his voice. Jaejoong smiled, "I bet you miss eating my cooking, huh?"
"Baby, I miss eating you"
Jaejoong blushed, "Yah" he chuckled, "You shouldn't talk like that when we're having a current long distance relationship. Its just sets the mood off."
Yunho chuckled softly, "Well, I want to tell you everything and everything has some manly needs that are wishing to be fulfilled" his voice was filled with so much lust, Jaejoong could've sworn he felt like it was contaminating him.
"No. We are not doing phone sex"
"Aww, come on~ I'm in my room. All alone. The door's locked and my step-dad's out so I can moan your name over and over again, as loud as I want to" Jaejoong could sense a smirk forming on Yunho's face.
"Call me tomorrow around night time then we'll have a session, alright?" Jaejoong smiled.
"Session, eh? Aiight" Yunho replied with a chuckle, "What's payment?"
"You'll let me top when you come back-- no exceptions. Deal?" Jaejoong raised an eyebrow.
"...hmm..." Yunho teased, "...oh...alright. Since I'm in low dose of Jaejoong, I'll do anything to have you-- even if its just your voice, just knowing you're masturbating with me is enough" he explained his feelings wanton. Jaejoong laughed, believing that his lover was really perverted. It wasn't just a name to tease with anymore.
"Yah"
"Huh?" Yunho replied.
"I love you, Yunho" Jaejoong smiled gently.
Yunho sighed a smile, "Jaejoong-ah...I love you too"
Jaejoong closed his eyes with a deep inhale and tried his best to remember that very moment.
Jaejoong
Its been 6 months.
Its been 6 months since he held my hand.
Its been 6 months since he looked into my eyes...kissed me on my lips...
Its been 6 months since he said those three words I've longed ever since.
Its been 6 long, fucking months.
He promised he'd call me, send me letters and e-mails.
He never, not once has he called me, sent me letters nor e-mails, any text messages. Nothing. He told me to wait and I am...but its just- I can't help but think something's happening and I need to do something about it. The only matter is that I don't know what that something is and I have no idea what to do about it. These days, I just spend my days drowned with work. Now that I'm married, I don't go out to bars and clubs (not that I want to anyway). Junsu's on eye duty for me. Saying that I shouldn't do something stupid to make Yunho upset when he comes back.
I wouldn't want that to happen...even though he's making me really upset now.
I'm sure he has good reasons for keeping me without calls or any signs of communication.
Dang it! We got married in Paris, France and I am wearing my wedding ring on my left forth finger every single day.
When someone asks, "Oh, you're married?" they'd smile, "What a lucky lady you must have"
I'd smiled back and correct them, "Oh no, I've got a lucky husband"
They'd either smile awkwardly or just walk away. It really didn't matter, they were the one who brought it up. I wasn't going to lie about my relationship with Yunho, we got married. He's my husband and I'm his husband in return. If we had the guts to get married, we should have more than enough guts to tell people we're gay and we're proud. It also helps with a headstrong personality and lots and lots of beer and wine. Whichever you have is fine, as long as you get drunk and wasted- you can say anything you want, really. But...then again, that's just me.
So, here I am once again siting on my desk, logged onto my e-mail address writing another e-mail to my dearly, beloved husband.
Yunho-ah,
How is it in Japan? Are you getting enough sleep? Are you eating 3 meals a day, honey? You think of me everyday, right? I think about you every single moment since you left...I feel a little regretful, sending you without me there. But, I guess its part of life...and acceptance that we need to do this in order to make things work.
But can't you just give me a call? A short reply to my e-mails? Did my letters get to you? I've been calling you and every time I do, I end up hearing your voice mail.
You're not ignoring me, are you?
DId I do something that upset you, Yunho-ah? If you think I'm going clubbing, hooking up with people because you're not here. You're wrong. I don't want anyone else but you. You can ask Junsu! Yoochun too.
...How long are you going to be away? Its been 6 long months without you here and its getting harder for me to have to wait without any sign of communication from you. I don't wanna think irrationally and get mad at you for not replying back to anything I send you. Maybe you're too busy. Or maybe your step-father doesn't let you reply... Just give me a sign and I'll be okay.
Just give me a sign that you still love me, I'll move on with the countless days and wait until you come back.
Take care and always remember that I'm thinking of you...
I love you,
Jaejoong
"Hyung"
I looked up and saw Junsu at the door, "Hey"
"Are you finish with work?" he asked, walking towards me. I nodded and closed my computer, "Yep, why?"
Junsu's smile dispersed from his face, "Well...since its a Friday... wanna go out and have drink?" his voice seemed a little confused, high-pitched more than usual.
"Drink?" I replied back, "I thought I wasn't suppose to have any at all" I smirked, "I thought you were on eagle eye patrol" I crossed my arms.
"Well...let's just let this one pass, hyung- I just really need a glass or two...or three at the most" Junsu nodded, "Please?" he pleaded with a pout. I sighed in defeat, "Alright fine- but you're paying" I stood up and took my jacket off my chair and placed it on my forearm. It was too hot to wear a jacket out now.
Junsu's smile appeared again, "Great! It'll be just the two of us" he grinned and walked towards me, swinging his arm around my neck. I chuckled, "Yah, don't you have places to go tonight?" I questioned as he walked out of my office, turning off the light switch as we passed it.
He shook his head, "Nah- Yoochun and I are still on that break, remember?"
I nodded, "Oh...yeah" I sighed, "Do you think its fine that you're on this break of yours for such a long time?" I mean, Yunho and I are married but not having him anywhere near me is driving me nuts. Imagine how Yoochun would feel.
Junsu pouted, "Hyung" he looked at me.
"Yeah?"
"Did I tell you?"
"What?"
"Yoochun and I...still....you know..."
"Eh? What kind of break is that?"
"Its complicated....we're just laying off the mushy stuff...the I love you's and all that" he nodded.
"So....its like you're sex buddies" I commented with a smile.
He blushed at an instant, "N-no we're not! We have feelings for each other!" he sulked. I laughed in response, "I'm just kidding. But I think you should just be with Yoochun- Changmin really hasn't been doing anything about it"
"That's because he really hasn't met him"
"You sure about that?"
Junsu nodded, "Yeah"
I sighed, "He told me he did and that he wanted to work hard from then on"
"Work hard?" he looked at me with a puzzled expression, "For what?"
I shrugged, "Beats me. I don't know how that brain of his works"
Junsu chuckled, "Aish- whatever. Tonight! Let's just rant out about everything and enjoy our young, gay lives!" he declared with a proud fist up in the air. I laughed and mimicked, "Yeah! Kudos to us!"
"And how hawt and sexy we look!" Junsu added.
And how sad and lonely we are....I' try my best to hide my inner feelings, I wanted Junsu to have fun tonight and not worry about the problems in our lives.
I burst out laughing, hearing his declaration is just so cute. How could I not celebrate? I nodded and had my fist way up in the air. Just for tonight I'll forget about everything and just live in the moment.
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After getting home and changed into something a bit more casual, I left Junsu in charge of where we were going. All I had to do was get the cab. He insisted on getting one instead of using my own car because we'd end up drunk. Like that would ever happen, I'm good with drinking. I'll make sure I'm sober enough to drive; but since its Junsu with a smile that I haven't seen in a long time, I couldn't disagree.
"Wah..." its as if he's never seen street lights on at night. I chuckled at his childish action, "Yah, Junsu-yah" I nudged him. Keeping the smile he made me wear, "You're like a five year old" I laughed as he looked at me with a huge grin. "What? I haven't been out in a while" he chuckled and leaned back onto the taxi seat. In a few minutes, we got to our destination and Junsu took care of the taxi driver and we were dropped off to a club filled with many people inside.
The smell of alcohol and smoke reeked through out the huge room and the humidity was beyond my expectations, it was hot the minute we walked in there. Junsu took my hand and pulled me to the bar, getting us both a seat. He seemed like he knew his way around these parts. I couldn't help but chuckle, "Yah, you've been here a couple of times huh?" I raised my voice a bit due to the loud music booming out through the speakers.
Junsu replied with a smirk, followed with an obvious nod. "Let's just say I get bored some times and you're too busy to play with me" he chuckled and raised his hand a bit for the bartender to pay attention to us. He leaned towards the counter and said something to the employee that I couldn't quiet hear, I shrugged it off. Trusting Junsu with the beverage choice and just took the time to look around. I noticed many women and men on the dance floor, grinding against each other to the beat of the music, I couldn't help but get excited and smile to myself then I felt Junsu tap me on the shoulder, causing me to naturally turn back. "Yeah?"
He had two glasses of light blue liquor in both of his hands, offering the right glass to me. I chortled and took it, bringing it up to my nose to take a sniff. It smelt really strong, causing me to back up a bit. Junsu laughed at my reaction, "Looks like someone's not drinking so much these days" he smirked and took a sip, putting it down on the counter then gazing around the scenery. "Feel like dancing with anyone?" he questioned me. I took a sip myself and found the drink pretty okay, I shrugged. "Nah, don't feel like dancing just yet. Besides, I've got an awesome partner right here" I chuckled and nudged his leg with my knee.
Junsu chuckled, "Eh? And who told you this partner wasn't going to make you dance?" he nudged back with a playful smile on his face.
I laughed out loud without hesitation, "Eh?" I replied, taking a sip of my strong alcohol.
Tonight was going to be fun.
Junsu had that smirk on.
AN: It was dry. No play with words. No metaphors or similes. Damn I need work. xDD I'm sorry for the fail. I...I wrote this like months ago and I just finished it a few days ago... I'm getting my head into the plot once more and I will asure you that if things do not make sense at the moment that they will be cleared up in time for the final chapter of this ..... long series-- in time sense. xDDD I really want to finish it because its taking its toll on my brain. .....I hope I can find the plot in my notes. >_< Anyhow, I thank you for reading. :] Comments are appreciated!!