Time Ago.
Some of the things I used to write in this feel like they came from a different lifetime. The negativity, brooding, and the obsessive dispair are things I hadn't thought much about, and it was only today that I had it in me to acknowledge what a wreck I had been turned into.
It was and wasn't my fault. And it does no good to blame myself and think to myself "I should have gotten a handle on myself sooner" because that is not how mental illness works, and nothing about that line of thought is conducive. It isn't beneficial in the sense that it is something I can even "learn from" for future reference, because I wasn't able to see it myself.
I've seen it in other people that I have crossed paths with, and all too often they don't agknowledge thay they need mental help or that there is a problem. I wasn't any different. I was completely out of it.
I can't accurately say that I will have a handle on it in the future, but I can acknowledge that I've got a problem today.
Mental illness does not reflect someone's self-worth as a human being.
It was and wasn't my fault. And it does no good to blame myself and think to myself "I should have gotten a handle on myself sooner" because that is not how mental illness works, and nothing about that line of thought is conducive. It isn't beneficial in the sense that it is something I can even "learn from" for future reference, because I wasn't able to see it myself.
I've seen it in other people that I have crossed paths with, and all too often they don't agknowledge thay they need mental help or that there is a problem. I wasn't any different. I was completely out of it.
I can't accurately say that I will have a handle on it in the future, but I can acknowledge that I've got a problem today.
Mental illness does not reflect someone's self-worth as a human being.