The Pit.
I've been on various things for the last four years; I am now attempting to stop that.
Most people wait until they have hit the bottom...and last night I realized that I don't think that I really want to get to that point.
My pit is a deep one, but I have the vague understanding that it isn't a bottomless one. And Hell, even after handling last night extremely well given the circumstances and the amount of alcohol that ensued...I really don't think that I have ever met anyone that can literally match my alcohol tolerance at this point, and I am not exaggerating when I say that.
I have my first A.A. meeting later this week. I am concerned because hitting the bottom, so to speak, is what enables most people to climb out. And I don't think that the fear of the bottom can motivate anyone quite like the act of actually getting there.
Most people wait until they have hit the bottom...and last night I realized that I don't think that I really want to get to that point.
My pit is a deep one, but I have the vague understanding that it isn't a bottomless one. And Hell, even after handling last night extremely well given the circumstances and the amount of alcohol that ensued...I really don't think that I have ever met anyone that can literally match my alcohol tolerance at this point, and I am not exaggerating when I say that.
I have my first A.A. meeting later this week. I am concerned because hitting the bottom, so to speak, is what enables most people to climb out. And I don't think that the fear of the bottom can motivate anyone quite like the act of actually getting there.