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[tincan]

Dr. Padalino offered me a good position doing graduate work in collaboration with LLE in Rochester. Although this would be a straight shot towards middle class, and ultimately graduate shcool, I think I am going to have to decline

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[chessmasterhex]

A long time ago I took a job just to get by and be like everyone else. I severely regret that decision. I quickly got bored and found it all to be quite meaningless. I quit and went back to school to get my master's degree and accumulated a gargantuan amount of debt while living in poverty for over two years. I have never regretted that move, though I feel like I'm paying for it every single pay period I come up just short of getting by. I do not value money whatsoever and I suffer for it every day. And I'm finding that those who do care about it surround themselves with it, and in one way or another flaunt it, and look actually down on me for having nothing! they think I'm a freak!

I do agree with you vehemently. I am finding it increasingly frustrating to watch my peers exceed me in all walks of life. I feel like I'll never be able to overcome my personal setbacks. And every day they get a little farther. And every day I go a little backwards. I have not yet figured out how to reverse these trends. The only solution I foresee is to start measuring success by a new unit, which will really only help my own self-perception, not necessarily resolve the systemic issue.

I share all this with you only because I feel a connection with you, invisible or unreal as it may be, and I think you'll understand what I'm trying to say here, though I feel like I'm rambling, and if I continue any further I'll just start ranting about how I hate everybody haha

[tincan]

For some reason I have been suffering with terrible writers block and have felt incapable of writing or even responding to anything- but thank you, I took your advice, actually followed through and truned down the job! And I haven't regretted it once.