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So. Got a date lined up next weekend, if you can call it that. That'll make it my first in about ten years, and maybe my... third, ever? Not quite sure how the hell it happened, either. I more or less got strong-armed into it.
Adrienne's nice and all. But I barely know her - she's an old friend of Greg and Kim's, and I didn't even meet her for the first time until the wedding. Since then I've met up with her at their little gatherings maybe... three times? I live like three hours away, and I have all the social skills of a plank of wood. And yet, for some reason, she seems bound and determined to get to know me better.
I just, really do not get it at all. Is she flirting with me? Just really friendly? Did Greg and Kim put her up to it? And why in the name of God even bother? Every talk I have with her seems heavily punctuated with long, awkward silences due to my having absolutely no idea what to say. And while there are much worse looking guys, I'm hardly any sort of prize to look at. And yet she seems to be going massively out of her way with me, even to the point of being somewhat forceful.
None of it makes a goddamn lick of sense to me. Gives me a headache every time I even think about it.
I mean, I have no hobbies outside gaming, no real skills or talents, no social ability, no looks. So what the hell is she thinking? Just, why? Am I a charity case? Is this her inner social worker trying to diagnose me or something? Oh yeah, that's her job, by the way. Social worker. I get the distinct feeling she was at least using SOME of those skills last night to verbally corner me. She's certainly not stupid enough to have been doing so unintentionally, at any rate. Whatever you've got in mind, Adrienne, I am seriously not worth the effort.
And some of the comments she makes... I can never tell how to take them. Is she flirting? Is she just joking? Or is she just so full of tequila she doesn't think a thing of it? Yeah, the three of them had had a bit to drink before they gave me a ring. When we had a short discussion regarding the catchiest slang for penis, I was easily able to take that as a joke without any connotations. But then she says, "So speaking of cock, when are you up here next?" Whoa. Full stop. How the hell am I supposed to read that?
I dunno, man. I'm just incredibly confused. And scared shitless, not gonna lie. Interacting with people in general frightens the hell out of me, even when they don't have some kind of agenda in mind.
Adrienne's nice and all. But I barely know her - she's an old friend of Greg and Kim's, and I didn't even meet her for the first time until the wedding. Since then I've met up with her at their little gatherings maybe... three times? I live like three hours away, and I have all the social skills of a plank of wood. And yet, for some reason, she seems bound and determined to get to know me better.
I just, really do not get it at all. Is she flirting with me? Just really friendly? Did Greg and Kim put her up to it? And why in the name of God even bother? Every talk I have with her seems heavily punctuated with long, awkward silences due to my having absolutely no idea what to say. And while there are much worse looking guys, I'm hardly any sort of prize to look at. And yet she seems to be going massively out of her way with me, even to the point of being somewhat forceful.
None of it makes a goddamn lick of sense to me. Gives me a headache every time I even think about it.
I mean, I have no hobbies outside gaming, no real skills or talents, no social ability, no looks. So what the hell is she thinking? Just, why? Am I a charity case? Is this her inner social worker trying to diagnose me or something? Oh yeah, that's her job, by the way. Social worker. I get the distinct feeling she was at least using SOME of those skills last night to verbally corner me. She's certainly not stupid enough to have been doing so unintentionally, at any rate. Whatever you've got in mind, Adrienne, I am seriously not worth the effort.
And some of the comments she makes... I can never tell how to take them. Is she flirting? Is she just joking? Or is she just so full of tequila she doesn't think a thing of it? Yeah, the three of them had had a bit to drink before they gave me a ring. When we had a short discussion regarding the catchiest slang for penis, I was easily able to take that as a joke without any connotations. But then she says, "So speaking of cock, when are you up here next?" Whoa. Full stop. How the hell am I supposed to read that?
I dunno, man. I'm just incredibly confused. And scared shitless, not gonna lie. Interacting with people in general frightens the hell out of me, even when they don't have some kind of agenda in mind.