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My poem,
Why do I always feel like i'm not good enough?
And how come now, in highschool, boyfriends come first?
I really miss being a kid and playing with other children.
No drama or reputations,
and yes i do still watch home videos of when I was little,
before my parents divorced right in the middle of my life.
And watching those old tapes,
I wish i could take myself back to those moments and cherish them,
for then, i didn't know what was coming.
Some people dont really realize that someone's parents divorcing,
makes a big impact on their life.
Maybe for some people its for the better,
But this is not the case in my life.
I try not to think about it,
but its hard not to picture how different my life would be
if my parents were still together to this day.
I feel so alone more than ever.
My boyfriend, not really even my boyfriend anymore i don't think,
so different in so many sad ways,
and my best friend hanging out with her boyfriend more than me.
I can't say i didn't see it coming,
Its happened to me in the past,
so i know i can take it.
I just wish people knew sometimes what its like for me.
I try to make the best of things,
but when i return home it comes right back.
I can't run from my problems,
but i can't get rid of them.
No matter how much I wish my parents would be together,
Wishing for this for the past 5 years since they separated
has done nothing.
They're still as far apart as ever.
My mom works everyday,
and its hard for her to be here for me.
I mean its so different than it used to be,
she used to be home all the time,
but things change.
And now living 5000 miles away from my dad,
does it help?
Not at all.
In some ways I wish i were a turtle.
I could hide in my shell whenever I wanted,
but hiding away isnt going to fix anything.
Nothing can.
So i write this poem to help me find myself again.
I can't live in a dream
and keep wishing for things to come true,
because it doesnt do or change anything.
I'm still the same,
and so if my life.
But i'll never leave behind the memories of being a child,
and being with my wonderful family.
They love me and always will.
and at least I had a normal life for some part of my life.
Why do I always feel like i'm not good enough?
And how come now, in highschool, boyfriends come first?
I really miss being a kid and playing with other children.
No drama or reputations,
and yes i do still watch home videos of when I was little,
before my parents divorced right in the middle of my life.
And watching those old tapes,
I wish i could take myself back to those moments and cherish them,
for then, i didn't know what was coming.
Some people dont really realize that someone's parents divorcing,
makes a big impact on their life.
Maybe for some people its for the better,
But this is not the case in my life.
I try not to think about it,
but its hard not to picture how different my life would be
if my parents were still together to this day.
I feel so alone more than ever.
My boyfriend, not really even my boyfriend anymore i don't think,
so different in so many sad ways,
and my best friend hanging out with her boyfriend more than me.
I can't say i didn't see it coming,
Its happened to me in the past,
so i know i can take it.
I just wish people knew sometimes what its like for me.
I try to make the best of things,
but when i return home it comes right back.
I can't run from my problems,
but i can't get rid of them.
No matter how much I wish my parents would be together,
Wishing for this for the past 5 years since they separated
has done nothing.
They're still as far apart as ever.
My mom works everyday,
and its hard for her to be here for me.
I mean its so different than it used to be,
she used to be home all the time,
but things change.
And now living 5000 miles away from my dad,
does it help?
Not at all.
In some ways I wish i were a turtle.
I could hide in my shell whenever I wanted,
but hiding away isnt going to fix anything.
Nothing can.
So i write this poem to help me find myself again.
I can't live in a dream
and keep wishing for things to come true,
because it doesnt do or change anything.
I'm still the same,
and so if my life.
But i'll never leave behind the memories of being a child,
and being with my wonderful family.
They love me and always will.
and at least I had a normal life for some part of my life.