Update.
Wow I really don't update this thing enough.
So lets see. The play was good! I had a blast and i'm glad that was my first one because it was just amazing. It's so much fun to act and see my friends and just be able to be silly me.
Also I'm pregnant. Yeah shocker there since pretty much everyone already knows so it's not big surprise. I'm 8 weeks tomorrow. That's so strange to think about. I'm feeling good though so that i'm really happy about . The thing though I think i regret most is the kid growing up and asking question about me and his/her father. Alot of kids always want there parents together. But I figure if i can give this kid a loving and stable home i've done my best. I dont love the father and I know that doesnt make me a bad person. I'll love this child. I already do so much. And im sure when I get a bit older and am with someone i'll love them and they'll love my child.
I've done alot of growing up in the last few months. I'm learned things about me and just about life in general. I've learned about family and friends. And about love. It's strange to think a year ago i was a totally different person. I mean we all grow up but not all of us mature and I feel like maybe I finally am. I've learned I have amazing friends that will always be there for me no matter what I get myself into. And to me that means the world. Some of them I've hurt and there still there for me no matter what and that means even more. My family isn't the worst family in the world. I could have it alot worse. I've learned I have so many people who love me and that's just a great feeling.
About love I learned its not always about you its about the person or people you love. And wanting them to be happy. I can't always make people happy like I wish I could but if they are happy with someone else that makes me happy . I think it's amazing to find someone you love. Some people never do and some people find it more then once. I guess you always have to think things will work out--sometimes they dont but thats because others things will happen and they'll be better and those will work out. Dwelling on the bad things or the bad things that could happen will make you so un-happy and life is just way to short to live that way. We never know how much time we have and we should live life as we want too while we still can.
I was in love once. I still am I think you never really fall out of love. If you love someone I think you will always love that person. They will always have a part of your heart but theres still room to love someone else and be with someone. You learn if you really love someone you let them go if there not happy and let them find happiness with somone else. of course you want that happiness to be with you but if its not then its not and you jmove on with your life. You can't dwell on what was or could have been. That's no way to go through life. It makes things hard and makes your life not worth living.
Yes this is the end of my deep insite stuff. I'm done. It's good.
Love
Tina*
So lets see. The play was good! I had a blast and i'm glad that was my first one because it was just amazing. It's so much fun to act and see my friends and just be able to be silly me.
Also I'm pregnant. Yeah shocker there since pretty much everyone already knows so it's not big surprise. I'm 8 weeks tomorrow. That's so strange to think about. I'm feeling good though so that i'm really happy about . The thing though I think i regret most is the kid growing up and asking question about me and his/her father. Alot of kids always want there parents together. But I figure if i can give this kid a loving and stable home i've done my best. I dont love the father and I know that doesnt make me a bad person. I'll love this child. I already do so much. And im sure when I get a bit older and am with someone i'll love them and they'll love my child.
I've done alot of growing up in the last few months. I'm learned things about me and just about life in general. I've learned about family and friends. And about love. It's strange to think a year ago i was a totally different person. I mean we all grow up but not all of us mature and I feel like maybe I finally am. I've learned I have amazing friends that will always be there for me no matter what I get myself into. And to me that means the world. Some of them I've hurt and there still there for me no matter what and that means even more. My family isn't the worst family in the world. I could have it alot worse. I've learned I have so many people who love me and that's just a great feeling.
About love I learned its not always about you its about the person or people you love. And wanting them to be happy. I can't always make people happy like I wish I could but if they are happy with someone else that makes me happy . I think it's amazing to find someone you love. Some people never do and some people find it more then once. I guess you always have to think things will work out--sometimes they dont but thats because others things will happen and they'll be better and those will work out. Dwelling on the bad things or the bad things that could happen will make you so un-happy and life is just way to short to live that way. We never know how much time we have and we should live life as we want too while we still can.
I was in love once. I still am I think you never really fall out of love. If you love someone I think you will always love that person. They will always have a part of your heart but theres still room to love someone else and be with someone. You learn if you really love someone you let them go if there not happy and let them find happiness with somone else. of course you want that happiness to be with you but if its not then its not and you jmove on with your life. You can't dwell on what was or could have been. That's no way to go through life. It makes things hard and makes your life not worth living.
Yes this is the end of my deep insite stuff. I'm done. It's good.
Love
Tina*