Thoughts for today.
Lately I have been very reflective on my life so far. Maybe it had something to do with turning another year older or maybe I just get like this every now and then.
Dating has been on my mind a lot and not exactly in the way you are probably thinking. I am not even sure I want to venture out into that place again. I do and I know that, but sometimes I wonder is it even worth it? I have been single for umm... A long time. Like 3 and a half years. Is that right? I think it is. See, I told you!
And in that length of time a lot had happened to me. I was very ill for quite some time. I gained a lot of weight but have lost some too. I have had a number of different jobs. I became a sister n law and an aunt twice (almost to 3). I've dealt with a number of family things. I started my own business. So, although an outsider looking in might think not much has happened, these past 3 years have been pretty eventful.
I miss the relationship part of dating and having that best friend who's there. But the awkwardness of everything else, not so much. Is it weird to think that I will always be alone? I have realized recently that I am one of the only few grandchildren left that haven't gotten married. Nor had a child, but I seriously doubt that is going to happen ever! Lol.
So this makes me think I should go out and at least try dating again. But that in and of itself has me stressed out already. Because how does one even go out and do that? I have been out of the loop obviously for quite some time.
Someone, somewhere has gotta be into me. Right?
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Dating has been on my mind a lot and not exactly in the way you are probably thinking. I am not even sure I want to venture out into that place again. I do and I know that, but sometimes I wonder is it even worth it? I have been single for umm... A long time. Like 3 and a half years. Is that right? I think it is. See, I told you!
And in that length of time a lot had happened to me. I was very ill for quite some time. I gained a lot of weight but have lost some too. I have had a number of different jobs. I became a sister n law and an aunt twice (almost to 3). I've dealt with a number of family things. I started my own business. So, although an outsider looking in might think not much has happened, these past 3 years have been pretty eventful.
I miss the relationship part of dating and having that best friend who's there. But the awkwardness of everything else, not so much. Is it weird to think that I will always be alone? I have realized recently that I am one of the only few grandchildren left that haven't gotten married. Nor had a child, but I seriously doubt that is going to happen ever! Lol.
So this makes me think I should go out and at least try dating again. But that in and of itself has me stressed out already. Because how does one even go out and do that? I have been out of the loop obviously for quite some time.
Someone, somewhere has gotta be into me. Right?
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