Decisions
Creativity or interaction? What is it that I really want? Creating things, or having friends? Can you have one without the other? Does one lead to the other? Chicken or egg?
Writing or drawing? Overcome a ( six-year-long ) phobia, or overcome a ( lifelong ) near-total lack of talent or skill? Which will give me the best result relative to time and effort spent?
Quality or quantity? Write a couple of long and detailed comments, or lots of little I-likes and I-agrees to lots of posts by lots of people? Which is the more likely to get a response and the least likely to creep people out?
Mine or theirs? Try to contribute something new to the fandom myself, whether writing, drawing or discussion, or spend those hours commenting on everybody else's stuff?
Hide or show? Wait to post whatever I create until I've reached the level of the others in fandom ( which in the case of drawing will be... oh, approximately... never ) or throw things out there and hope somebody thinks it's cute or a decent effort and the rest aren't angry with me for spamming up the internet with substandard fanworks?
Try something or give up? Sometimes it just seems so hard to find a place or a role in fandom. I feel so useless and like I can't possibly contribute anything that anybody will appreciate. But so called "real life" has never been enough to make me feel complete.
Writing or drawing? Overcome a ( six-year-long ) phobia, or overcome a ( lifelong ) near-total lack of talent or skill? Which will give me the best result relative to time and effort spent?
Quality or quantity? Write a couple of long and detailed comments, or lots of little I-likes and I-agrees to lots of posts by lots of people? Which is the more likely to get a response and the least likely to creep people out?
Mine or theirs? Try to contribute something new to the fandom myself, whether writing, drawing or discussion, or spend those hours commenting on everybody else's stuff?
Hide or show? Wait to post whatever I create until I've reached the level of the others in fandom ( which in the case of drawing will be... oh, approximately... never ) or throw things out there and hope somebody thinks it's cute or a decent effort and the rest aren't angry with me for spamming up the internet with substandard fanworks?
Try something or give up? Sometimes it just seems so hard to find a place or a role in fandom. I feel so useless and like I can't possibly contribute anything that anybody will appreciate. But so called "real life" has never been enough to make me feel complete.