maybe i shouldn't listen to acoustic love songs :/
Things are slowly changing very slowly. Today was my last day of training and tomorrow is sink or swim day. Made me sink in and think about where i was last year and where i am today. It's been 9 months since we have been apart and like today i feel you just left out that door. My heart is barely beating and when i mutter you name is the only time it's happy to be alive. I know i deserve more but today you are all i want. I worry i may never love again. And more scared i will fall and fall again for the wrong person. Darn this heart for wanting something that makes no sense. My head knows better but the heart wants what the heart wants. can i get a transplant? well now that i have givin you more tears than you deserve. I can pass out exhausted hopefully tomorrow is easier. night