::sing::
Yeah, I know. I don't write.
Here.
But things are going on. And that's neat.
Guess what? Guess who didn't have Seasonal Affective Disorder this winter so bad that they were incapacitated? Oh yeah. That's me. I got restless and anxious, but this much snow will do that to a person. I think we've had close to two dozen storms this year. It's been ridiculous. But though I found myself hibernating, I didn't fall down into a hole and that is very important to me.
I feel like maybe I lost myself a bit, and I'm my way to finding me again. It's a nice thing to feel like I can make any change to myself that I want, so long as I want it.
One of those changes is weight loss. I made a new personal record last year, getting up to about 215 and actually having to go UP a size for the first time in my adult life. That was a wake up. So at the beginning of the year (not as a resolution, since it was in the middle of January) I started keeping a food and exercise diary, for some accountability. I started out at 210 pounds, and I'm down to 200, so I'm definitely making progress. I'm back down a size to where I've always been and I never thought I'd be happy to be a size 16 again, but hey. Things happen. I'm actually writing this waiting for Nick to get up and have some coffee so we can go to the gym. I WANT to go to the gym. I like working out. I life feeling the accomplishment of it.
By the way, I'm really seriously proud of you, Jason, for keeping up with your work out program. I haven't said it, but it makes me feel less alone knowing that you're working hard too.
It's hard to eat like I want when I live with someone who eats differently, but I just make the choices I can. I take smaller portions. I don't add a lot of butter. Sometimes I cheat, and that's ok because it doesn't ruin everything. It just pauses progress. You can still move forward from there.
I actually sound like an inspirational talker these days, and it's mostly for myself, and as cheesy as it is it works for me and I feel really great about myself.
I still work the same job. I want to move to another position (kind of life a lifetime of missionary, thinking that girl on top sounds interesting) within the company, but I'm not sure what where or when, so I'm just keeping myself open and creating opportunities as I can.
Ok, the internet is wanted so I'm out. Miss you all.
Here.
But things are going on. And that's neat.
Guess what? Guess who didn't have Seasonal Affective Disorder this winter so bad that they were incapacitated? Oh yeah. That's me. I got restless and anxious, but this much snow will do that to a person. I think we've had close to two dozen storms this year. It's been ridiculous. But though I found myself hibernating, I didn't fall down into a hole and that is very important to me.
I feel like maybe I lost myself a bit, and I'm my way to finding me again. It's a nice thing to feel like I can make any change to myself that I want, so long as I want it.
One of those changes is weight loss. I made a new personal record last year, getting up to about 215 and actually having to go UP a size for the first time in my adult life. That was a wake up. So at the beginning of the year (not as a resolution, since it was in the middle of January) I started keeping a food and exercise diary, for some accountability. I started out at 210 pounds, and I'm down to 200, so I'm definitely making progress. I'm back down a size to where I've always been and I never thought I'd be happy to be a size 16 again, but hey. Things happen. I'm actually writing this waiting for Nick to get up and have some coffee so we can go to the gym. I WANT to go to the gym. I like working out. I life feeling the accomplishment of it.
By the way, I'm really seriously proud of you, Jason, for keeping up with your work out program. I haven't said it, but it makes me feel less alone knowing that you're working hard too.
It's hard to eat like I want when I live with someone who eats differently, but I just make the choices I can. I take smaller portions. I don't add a lot of butter. Sometimes I cheat, and that's ok because it doesn't ruin everything. It just pauses progress. You can still move forward from there.
I actually sound like an inspirational talker these days, and it's mostly for myself, and as cheesy as it is it works for me and I feel really great about myself.
I still work the same job. I want to move to another position (kind of life a lifetime of missionary, thinking that girl on top sounds interesting) within the company, but I'm not sure what where or when, so I'm just keeping myself open and creating opportunities as I can.
Ok, the internet is wanted so I'm out. Miss you all.