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i have no controll in my life anymore. everything around me seems to be moving and im standing still alone on this platform i created just for me. how can i get off this and step back into the real world? i started self infliction again to gain control back. its the only way i know how to. either my life is frozen at a certain time or everything seems to be going way to fast. i cant seem to cope with the problems that are coming up to me. i totally give up. im tired of worrying what if. and what right does he have to say i never cared. i cared for fucken three years! i put up with shit for three fuckn years. and i didnt care!!!! he fucked other girls i stood by him....i didnt care!!! people cant seem to relize when i do love them. i just give the fuck up