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I did more of what I have been doing a lot of lately...thinking. Today while out and about with Jen and Jeremy I thought a lot about how great it would be to leave. I guess packing up and leaving is always appealing when you are unhappy. It is so easy to think that a city or country can change your problems. But I know at the end of the day you can't run away from your problems.
I sort of feel like I either need to be absolutely 100% completely alone right now or completely surrounded by people.
In the fall I started thinking about what I would do with the extra year I would be taking off before teachers college. One of the possibilities I thought about was working in Alberta. It's extremely lucrative right now and easy as hell to get a job, so for someone like me looking to make money and wants to move away for a while it seems like a reasonable option. I've been talking to my friend Tan lately and he's thought about doing the exact same thing, but it's odd, because for the most part I don't want to do this with him. I feel like it's something I have to do completely on my own. It's my opportunity to fall flat on my face or to do really well
Lately I've had this feeling of recklessness where I don't really care if I go down and the thought of it is intriguing. So why not gamble and find out what happens?
Obviously I have commitments here in Ottawa with my lease but that is up at the end of August, but, after that I have decisions to make. A lot will depend on how I am feeling in the months leading up to then and my finances.
Another decision I have to make is whether or not I want to let people completely in or shut people completely out.
I sort of feel like I either need to be absolutely 100% completely alone right now or completely surrounded by people.
In the fall I started thinking about what I would do with the extra year I would be taking off before teachers college. One of the possibilities I thought about was working in Alberta. It's extremely lucrative right now and easy as hell to get a job, so for someone like me looking to make money and wants to move away for a while it seems like a reasonable option. I've been talking to my friend Tan lately and he's thought about doing the exact same thing, but it's odd, because for the most part I don't want to do this with him. I feel like it's something I have to do completely on my own. It's my opportunity to fall flat on my face or to do really well
Lately I've had this feeling of recklessness where I don't really care if I go down and the thought of it is intriguing. So why not gamble and find out what happens?
Obviously I have commitments here in Ottawa with my lease but that is up at the end of August, but, after that I have decisions to make. A lot will depend on how I am feeling in the months leading up to then and my finances.
Another decision I have to make is whether or not I want to let people completely in or shut people completely out.