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Sometimes i just feel alone, but i am not sad or upset just somewhere in the middle... does that make any sence? like you think of past memories and and just yern for them? well not them exactly, but what you felt during them. i don't know if that makes any sence. but it just seems as though, lately, the littles thing can spark my emotions and the thing is, i'm not sad or upset. like i feel sad or like i wanna yell or something, but at the same time i can't because deep down i am happy. i don't know it's really weird and i don't know if i really understand it myself. i just wish sometimes that things i did and decisions i made had been different... but then when certain things happen they make me realize why i made those decisions... what to do? i don't know if i should look past my old decisions and seem where it takes me or let things be. i'm not 100% sure if the decisions i made are right and i don't know how to find out if they are. so in short i miss some people who i have been very close with and am trying to figure out if i could have done something different to make things a little better. i know there are a few people i have to talkt to and i think that will work a lot of things out. LOVE YOU ALL!
it weird to feel those things when you're happy at the same time because i'm not sad. i seriously think it's the strangest thing ever and i really don't understand it!
alright so today i am working AT CASEY PARK TILL 4.... if you read this you HAVE TO COME VISIT! it is manditory!!!! and i'm serious bc there haven't been some people that i have really been hoping would come. and hopefully i get a check today, one of three will be fine. just something so i can pay people back, mostly my mom, and pay off my little credit card. then things will be just dandy! okay so now it's time for a shower which i recommend you all to do bc you're coming to visit me!! GET READY! SEE YOU SOON!!!!!!!
it weird to feel those things when you're happy at the same time because i'm not sad. i seriously think it's the strangest thing ever and i really don't understand it!
alright so today i am working AT CASEY PARK TILL 4.... if you read this you HAVE TO COME VISIT! it is manditory!!!! and i'm serious bc there haven't been some people that i have really been hoping would come. and hopefully i get a check today, one of three will be fine. just something so i can pay people back, mostly my mom, and pay off my little credit card. then things will be just dandy! okay so now it's time for a shower which i recommend you all to do bc you're coming to visit me!! GET READY! SEE YOU SOON!!!!!!!