just thought I'd catch up
It's been about a week or more since I've updated and even though I'm sure noone really reads it I thought I would update anyway. Had a really bad week with the whole ed issue. Got caught up in the obsession with exercise and calories again, which in turn led to me purging because of how many calories I had eaten that day. Usually when something like this happens I'm able to see it for what it is, a mistake, and move on. This time was a little different though. I didn't purge again but the ed voice came back really loudly this time, I was having a hard time shaking it. It tried to take over my mind and I had to fight it every second of the day. It just goes to show that no matter how well you think you're doing you're always suceptible to that ed and have to be ready for it when it plans to strike. It was really hard getting back the control this time which lets me know that I can't keep slipping up lik that anymore. Each time I have a little slip I feel it's that much harder to get myself on track. Ever since it happened I've had headaches, my stomach's been hurting, and I've just felt like crying all day. I feel as if I'm coming around again and that at least for now the ed isn't going to suck me in again. I pray with all my might that I can continue to be stronger than it and that someday I won't have to worry about even the tiniest slip. That's about it for now. Wish me luck