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sux, i just erased like 20 minutes of typing, so, bellingham cops suck, my neighbors suck, zoe is rad, but shes moving and i hope we get back together an.....im so pissed that i just fucking erased all this. since im in a typing mood right now, i wont restate what i just wrote cause i dont like repeating myself, and making it sound like fresh ideas, when really those ideas are gone, sorry you missed it, i hope my memory is good enough to remember the things i said. So instead, ill just continue writing where i left off.......
but i know i cant be in love with her, although what i do feel is very close, but love is something you find in your late twentys, and buy an apartment with, and be dating for like 4 years. me and zo got about two months. I really hope when she comes back that things will just pick up the way they left off....cause i know my feelings cant change too much, i mean, i understand that things can not be the exact same thing, its just the nature of things. But bascially i have to let her know that i may date other people while she is away. She wont understand, at least thats my perdicition, and its going to be one of the hardest most emotional chats i will ever have. so im not looking forward to it. I know my writing is very matter of fact, but thats the way i am, matter of fact. and i hope just for a moment zoe can understand that this is the healthiest thing to do. we'll see.
but i know i cant be in love with her, although what i do feel is very close, but love is something you find in your late twentys, and buy an apartment with, and be dating for like 4 years. me and zo got about two months. I really hope when she comes back that things will just pick up the way they left off....cause i know my feelings cant change too much, i mean, i understand that things can not be the exact same thing, its just the nature of things. But bascially i have to let her know that i may date other people while she is away. She wont understand, at least thats my perdicition, and its going to be one of the hardest most emotional chats i will ever have. so im not looking forward to it. I know my writing is very matter of fact, but thats the way i am, matter of fact. and i hope just for a moment zoe can understand that this is the healthiest thing to do. we'll see.