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I want to quit my job and go to college full time.
I am miserable right now and feel unhirable and worthless. (I know that this is probably not true, what/how you feel isn’t influenced by logic.) I would love to go to college and I feel myself getting older and the older I get the less time I have to benefit from a college education when I am done with college. Every year I think, if I had a Bachelors or a Masters I could be working at a job I really enjoy, and make enough money to grab at life. But instead I have to work to live. And I can’t do full time school because I work. Some people can go to school full time, raise 3 kids and, work 60 hours a week. I can’t.
In order to live, I estimate I need $12,000.00 a year. This will pay rent, car, food, gym, and leave money for misc expenses. (new car battery, doctor, comic books, ect) College is about $400.00 a credit. (This is not Brookhaven pricing.) 12 credits a semester = $4,800.00. Two semesters a year = $9,600.00. If I assume $100.00 a book, on book per class, four classes a semester that’s $800.00 in books a year. So $10,400.00 for school and 12,000.00 to live. I would need $22,400.00 a year in loans and financial aid to just be a student. $89,600.00 for four years and that is not going to happen.
What MIGHT happen is I keep my job, and take one class a semester at Brookhaven until I get my Associates.
You know going to college isn’t even about eventually getting a good job. It’s about self improvement; something I feel I need. I want the feeling of accomplishment that some with completion. Right now I just feel like I failed. I work for my father which caries with it the taint of nepotism and the implication that I only have the job because he is my father. I am loosening my apartment, because I can’t afford it. While I am looking forward to moving in with Ruby it still feels like I lost my apartment and thus am incapable of living on my own unsupported.
The root of this whole thing could be, just another one of my downward mood swings, lack of a good job, or lack of money, but it’s really just me. I am my own problem. What I need to fix is me once that is cleared up everything else will improve.
I am miserable right now and feel unhirable and worthless. (I know that this is probably not true, what/how you feel isn’t influenced by logic.) I would love to go to college and I feel myself getting older and the older I get the less time I have to benefit from a college education when I am done with college. Every year I think, if I had a Bachelors or a Masters I could be working at a job I really enjoy, and make enough money to grab at life. But instead I have to work to live. And I can’t do full time school because I work. Some people can go to school full time, raise 3 kids and, work 60 hours a week. I can’t.
In order to live, I estimate I need $12,000.00 a year. This will pay rent, car, food, gym, and leave money for misc expenses. (new car battery, doctor, comic books, ect) College is about $400.00 a credit. (This is not Brookhaven pricing.) 12 credits a semester = $4,800.00. Two semesters a year = $9,600.00. If I assume $100.00 a book, on book per class, four classes a semester that’s $800.00 in books a year. So $10,400.00 for school and 12,000.00 to live. I would need $22,400.00 a year in loans and financial aid to just be a student. $89,600.00 for four years and that is not going to happen.
What MIGHT happen is I keep my job, and take one class a semester at Brookhaven until I get my Associates.
You know going to college isn’t even about eventually getting a good job. It’s about self improvement; something I feel I need. I want the feeling of accomplishment that some with completion. Right now I just feel like I failed. I work for my father which caries with it the taint of nepotism and the implication that I only have the job because he is my father. I am loosening my apartment, because I can’t afford it. While I am looking forward to moving in with Ruby it still feels like I lost my apartment and thus am incapable of living on my own unsupported.
The root of this whole thing could be, just another one of my downward mood swings, lack of a good job, or lack of money, but it’s really just me. I am my own problem. What I need to fix is me once that is cleared up everything else will improve.