throw myself into this wine red ocean...
I've been having nightmares lately. I fear night terrors coming back to me, and it's likely to happen. It's as if my sub-conscious knows that I'm happy, and it's trying to destroy whatever it can of that in sleep. It's succeeding. I've been tired lately, run down a bit, I should say... and if you were to come by you'd most like catch me in bed, though never sleeping, because I just can't seem to get to sleep. I close my eyes and rest, because the body needs rest, else it'll shut down from exhaustion... but I've not been getting sleep. Ah well... it'll stop eventually and I'll sleep for weeks. Something to look forward to, I suppose.
...besides... upon waking from what sleep I do get, he's beneath me or above me and his eyes meet mine, or I'm greeted by the sight of his peaceful face, closed eyelids, and the sound of his even breathing. There's something that takes your breath away, some kind of surreal element to waking up next to someone you've got strong feelings for... and it makes up for the nightmares, makes me forget I've even had them, and lets me fall back into a few blissful hours of dreamless sleep. Safety in numbers.
So I attended the little party Hannah threw for Linde and Manna... it was nice to see everyone... and I've got a few things swirling through my mind, but I'll stop myself from saying any of it, as it'd just cause drama, and I'm not into that stuff. I'll just say that I had fun, but in the end I was just too tired to stay and too restless to continue sitting still.
...besides... upon waking from what sleep I do get, he's beneath me or above me and his eyes meet mine, or I'm greeted by the sight of his peaceful face, closed eyelids, and the sound of his even breathing. There's something that takes your breath away, some kind of surreal element to waking up next to someone you've got strong feelings for... and it makes up for the nightmares, makes me forget I've even had them, and lets me fall back into a few blissful hours of dreamless sleep. Safety in numbers.
So I attended the little party Hannah threw for Linde and Manna... it was nice to see everyone... and I've got a few things swirling through my mind, but I'll stop myself from saying any of it, as it'd just cause drama, and I'm not into that stuff. I'll just say that I had fun, but in the end I was just too tired to stay and too restless to continue sitting still.