Clear thoughts.
I'm not sure if this happens for everyone, or if I'm just speaking for myself or what, but this is the way it works with me.
Sometimes, very rarely, maybe once a month or two at most, there are nights where things come clearly into perspective and detailed plans or outlines of the future lay themselves out infront of my very eyes. Consequences and rewards are both clearly visible, and presentable. Wrong roads which I don't want to turn on become very evident, and I am thankfully able to avoid screw-ups and boo-boo's that could potentially impact my life.
Once in a while, I will have one of these nights, and while I'm not exactly sleeping, I will dream of things I want to do. Not necessarily things that are unattainable, or need to be dreamt of, but things that I wouldn't or couldn't do on an ordinary average day. Ideas present themselves so easily for the story I am writing, and once again, the correct light, or more desirable light becomes very clear to me.
Tonight just happened to be one of those nights. Things seem clear to me right now, for how long this will last I can not be sure. Broad and negative outlooks on life are absent right now, and nothing makes me happier than that. A negative person is not who I am, or want to be. Compared to two or three years ago, I think I became a pretty positive person, as positive as a person can be without being full of shit.
As a whole hurling heap of variously assorted thoughts race through my tired mind, I don't wonder what is next, because I will choose what is next when the time is right, or it will happen that way.
As far as this submission of my life and thought process goes.
Life is about doing the process, not the result.
Sometimes, very rarely, maybe once a month or two at most, there are nights where things come clearly into perspective and detailed plans or outlines of the future lay themselves out infront of my very eyes. Consequences and rewards are both clearly visible, and presentable. Wrong roads which I don't want to turn on become very evident, and I am thankfully able to avoid screw-ups and boo-boo's that could potentially impact my life.
Once in a while, I will have one of these nights, and while I'm not exactly sleeping, I will dream of things I want to do. Not necessarily things that are unattainable, or need to be dreamt of, but things that I wouldn't or couldn't do on an ordinary average day. Ideas present themselves so easily for the story I am writing, and once again, the correct light, or more desirable light becomes very clear to me.
Tonight just happened to be one of those nights. Things seem clear to me right now, for how long this will last I can not be sure. Broad and negative outlooks on life are absent right now, and nothing makes me happier than that. A negative person is not who I am, or want to be. Compared to two or three years ago, I think I became a pretty positive person, as positive as a person can be without being full of shit.
As a whole hurling heap of variously assorted thoughts race through my tired mind, I don't wonder what is next, because I will choose what is next when the time is right, or it will happen that way.
As far as this submission of my life and thought process goes.
Life is about doing the process, not the result.