January bound
i've been waiting for this final stretch of days. when i put myself first over everything else and entrench myself in work and nothing more. the finish line is close, and although i remain uncertain of my future, i feel putting my first foot forward is the biggest step i will have taken since the day i came to indiana.
i anticipate things playing out in two roads: one having things play out well, and making my trip back home a successful one. the other being a shitstorm of life that keeps me locked in exile for more-than-likely another year. you can't blame your failures on anyone but yourself, but sometimes i like to think that it's just not meant to be when you feel you've put your all into something and it doesn't work out. i doubt i have put my all into this like i think i have. but i will do what i need to.
in other news, i have hit a proverbial wall for proverbs. this is the most i have written in weeks. that depresses me.
i anticipate things playing out in two roads: one having things play out well, and making my trip back home a successful one. the other being a shitstorm of life that keeps me locked in exile for more-than-likely another year. you can't blame your failures on anyone but yourself, but sometimes i like to think that it's just not meant to be when you feel you've put your all into something and it doesn't work out. i doubt i have put my all into this like i think i have. but i will do what i need to.
in other news, i have hit a proverbial wall for proverbs. this is the most i have written in weeks. that depresses me.