such is life...
well...at 2:30 this morning i lost a very dear friend of mine. i've never dealt with somebody actually saying goodbye to a friendship, and it is as if they died. a whole year and a half of my life, i don't want to say it was wasted but if this is how it's ending, then it really was a waste. but it's all completely my fault and although i wish they had dealt with it in a different, more mature way, i deserve this...i'm a complete asshole and i don't know why people put up w/ stupid shit like that. i know there's nothing i can do about it now, except to turn time so i could figure out what i was doing at the time. but i guess this is the cycle of life and this is just how it's going to be for the next 60 years or so. wow.
see you in Heaven. if i make it.
exam time really brings me down. i freak out, stress out, don't get any sleep, get really grumpy, don't eat...just not a good time. but then i wind up not studying like i should, but i really need to this time b/c i have to pass all my classes to graduate. i know i will, i just need to put a little more effort into school instead of going pointless shit all the time. i guess i should enjoy the nothingness while i can b/c next year's studying schedule is going to be hell...that is unless i wind up going to cofc where dumbasses can pass w/o trying.
on a lighter note, i'm going to app state next weekend! probably friday through tuesday if the weather's not bad. yay for snowboarding! can't wait! i need a good two days so i can maybe go down the blue mountains. it's my treat to myself after studying oh-so-hard for the exams.
since i only got 3 hours of sleep last night, i'm going to do my light reading and try to get to bed before 5 in the morning :)
see you in Heaven. if i make it.
exam time really brings me down. i freak out, stress out, don't get any sleep, get really grumpy, don't eat...just not a good time. but then i wind up not studying like i should, but i really need to this time b/c i have to pass all my classes to graduate. i know i will, i just need to put a little more effort into school instead of going pointless shit all the time. i guess i should enjoy the nothingness while i can b/c next year's studying schedule is going to be hell...that is unless i wind up going to cofc where dumbasses can pass w/o trying.
on a lighter note, i'm going to app state next weekend! probably friday through tuesday if the weather's not bad. yay for snowboarding! can't wait! i need a good two days so i can maybe go down the blue mountains. it's my treat to myself after studying oh-so-hard for the exams.
since i only got 3 hours of sleep last night, i'm going to do my light reading and try to get to bed before 5 in the morning :)