update
my very bored figers just typed themselves to livejournal.
i've been working at my new job, training, its gonna be a lot of fun. its fresh and new and the people are already making me laugh so much.
hmmmm i've been on vacation since seriously like the 12th-ish? and damn i've been wanting to go back to classes for so long, i mean i've had a lot of time to see my friends back to college and spend this time the rightttt way but i just wanna have school again for some reason? my adderall probably haha. andddd i'm really excited to take human sexuality! i signed up for this other class drugs and human behavior and they make you go and observe a.a. meetings around you for like homework and shit so it just seemed like a really interesting class..that in the long run will probably freak me out haha
as fo da luv life. fuckk it. LOL. i'm just annoyed with it all so much that i think its blocking me now, yah know? likeeeee all of the assholes and dumb fucks and shitty situations i've been dealing with for so long just over and over has tainted my thoughts on every guy that wants to hang out with me. it's not easy for me to trust anyone i like or am starting to feel that way, and everything just seems like a game... hopefully it's not REALLY like this. whatever. i've just been done with hookups, on and off dating, head gaming, and all shit dumb shit for so long. i don't need someone, i want someone. so im just seeing how no sex, no texting, no number giving goes for a little because even though i could be missing out on something i'm bound to ruin it myself with this shitt additude i've developed over everything.
haha well now that i've analyzed myself @ 1 in the morning i think i'm going to end this entry.
:) goodnite to.. just me because no one reads this hahah