Changes and rambling.
I need a change of scenery, I'm sick of the same people the same fucking places the same bands and the same shows, The only thing we have in 386 is fuckin' drugs, and shows, there is absolutely nothing here... The bands suck, theres never anything new, just fucking Emo and wanna be pussy ass 'hardcore'. I want to move, i love my friends any my family but i just want to move away...and i kinda' wish that the move would be with him =/ but he has school and work here, he cant leave and i dont think he'd leave with me.
I kinda' just want to grow up i'm sick of looking like an eight year old girl and dressing like one also...i kinda just want to get my GED get my lisence and fucking leave, i want either mountains and cold weather or fucking steal scenery, we just have cows, shitty buildings, and wanna be upper class bitches that are nothing but plastic.
Sorry i'm ranting, and if the little rant doesn't make sense at all that's because i'm frustrated and i dont give a damn about editing right now.
I love Adam more then anything, and i want him back in my life the way he was ( we're getting back to it though)...he actually told me he loves me the other night...it felt so good...although it was a text message...it still made me so happy to read it...especially since he isnt emotional at all....and he rarely ever expresses how he feels.
These stupid Tegan and Sara reviews are really upsetting me...they've been my fav. band for about a year or so now and it hurts to see that people could be so ignorant and cruel....they're my babys and they deserve respect =[.
The puppys laying under my feet...she's so warm it feels good =].
In other news the inside of my mouth is gashed up and my ass is stretched to hell..and yet i've never been in such a good mood.
=]]]] it was sooo cute the puppy stuck her tounge out at me yesterday =]]].
...I'm rambling but whattevvv, theres like nothing new in the T&S community and my parents are being fucking assholes so i'll do whatever i want, i'm just going to sit here write listen to NMH and wait for them to leave so i can be alone.
...I miss him already =///....I think i'm actually going to lay down and watch T.V until they leave, there's seriously no point in letting them bring me down, i'm sick of letting everyone effect my mood, this is my life and i'm finally happy again and i dont want to let ANYONE ruin that at all.
....Fucking asshole didn't even let me piss before he got in the shower -_-
Gr, I think i'm going to shop around online for a bit and then go up to my room....I love ignoring them =]].
I miss watching Rick And Steve, there hasnt been a new eppisode in weeks...and i feel empty without the happiest gay couple in all the world.
.....Hmmm talking to mindi actually sounds like a good idea....but i REALLY need somthing for this headache...
LOL@thefact that i cant stay on the same topic for more then 5 minutes.
The one I love by Sufjan Stevens really makes me happy =] so does my T&S hoodie...i really wish i had headphones for my iPod so i could just go on a walk all bundled up and get like coffee or something......Sounds like the old days =].
Nov. 27th is coming up =]...The One year aniversary of the day my entire world changed for the better =]...I really hope i see him that night and he talks about it with me =].....I love this time of year.but i'd really love to have someone to stay with for christmas =/ whatever, He'll protect me...No matter what he'd never let that happen to me again, and if the situation comes up i know he'll be there for me, it was cute cause last year he almost came to my house from work and beat the shittt outta him =]]]].
"I had never seen someone look so scared...and yet so beautiful in my life"....those words will never leave me as long as i live.<3.
Hehe my dad just gave me Darvoset =], He isn't so bitchy now...i told him what was wrong and he laughed cause it had to do with T'n'S....but he knows how much i love them so he's being nice =]
"its the way that he makes you feel, its the way that he kisses you, its the way he makes you fall in love" <33
He's always so warm compared to me =] ever since i met him he's been so warm and no matter how bundled up i am i'm still like ice.
....Meh dad's leaving soon so i think i'll take the pills, hop in the shower and then just mellow out....I don't the darvoset's going to do anything though =/..