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It's pretty amazing how good you can feel one day, and how shitty you can feel the next.
Just when you get to the point where you think you have it all figured out it blows up in your face.
My mom re-did our sunroom over the summer and today my dad wanted to help out while she was away and put this old fashion coffee grinder on the wall and he accidentally screwed into a metal plate behind the wall so the wall started to come out. Now there are two huge screw hole in my mom's newly painted wall "nothing goes the way you plan" he said.
I thought I was going so sweet on the life journey and then today I realized how scared I really am. I can't imagine leaving my family for as long as i'd have to if i went to WP... I'm freaked out really.
I wanted to spend time with extended family this break and i keep getting torn away... completely my fault, I know. Now I feel so frikken bad about it that I don't know wat to do anymore.
Realizing how easy it was for me to take my family for granted when I was doing something that was fun for me... makes me think of how easily i just up and decided Wp for life yesterday, maybe I shouldn't. I'm scared.
I'm really sorry that is such a downer if you just read that... I had to vent somewhere.
Just when you get to the point where you think you have it all figured out it blows up in your face.
My mom re-did our sunroom over the summer and today my dad wanted to help out while she was away and put this old fashion coffee grinder on the wall and he accidentally screwed into a metal plate behind the wall so the wall started to come out. Now there are two huge screw hole in my mom's newly painted wall "nothing goes the way you plan" he said.
I thought I was going so sweet on the life journey and then today I realized how scared I really am. I can't imagine leaving my family for as long as i'd have to if i went to WP... I'm freaked out really.
I wanted to spend time with extended family this break and i keep getting torn away... completely my fault, I know. Now I feel so frikken bad about it that I don't know wat to do anymore.
Realizing how easy it was for me to take my family for granted when I was doing something that was fun for me... makes me think of how easily i just up and decided Wp for life yesterday, maybe I shouldn't. I'm scared.
I'm really sorry that is such a downer if you just read that... I had to vent somewhere.