we were young once.

[timidess]

"i think about it every once in awhile, i don't deny. i see her walkin' down the hall, smile 'cause i knew her before, then think 'there's the ho who's slutting my boyfriend.' and it pisses me off. but then i get ta thinkin and i'm like geez, maybe i'm just a ho who's slutting that other chick's boyfriend. heck, every one of us girls is just a ho who's sluttin' someone else's boyfriend. except for the girls that never do anything, and i admire that. not that i'm sayin' there's a problem with girls who've done stuff. you can like one guy without liking every guy, or say you wanna make out with your boyfriend, but it's not like you just like making out with every hunk a meat that passes by you. ...you get what i mean. but i've got this twisted thing in my mind. it's like with my old boyfriend, i see 'im and think he's MY boyfriend, but we've been split up for two years. so anybody else who dates him is just some chick who's dating my boyfriend. not that i'm saying this all like, defensively and stuff... i mean it pisses me off, but that's something else. it's the same thing for people i don't know. i never liked the idea of dating a lot, i mean one just 'cause i don't like it, but i mean when you dated a couple a people... it's just weird. like what about the first guy? i mean you have feelings or whatever for him and you're all lovey-dovey n stuff for awhile and you get along great, but something happens or whatever and then you spend some time on your own and then someone else comes along and it's the same thing over again. i mean what's with that? so was it all just fake the first time, or is it just like things change. i mean yeah things change it's not like i'm opposed to that or whatever, it's just weird. of course there's tons of people to like out there... but i never liked that either. so does that mean that whoever you like now isn't really anything special but just one of the guys that your A goes well with his B and you both have the right amount of C? but ya know, whatever. i don't even know what i'm tryin' ta say anymore. i just passed by that girl today and it pissed me off."

[^] i like that. i don't agree with all of it, but some of it's kind of anything.